SHAUMBRA HEARTBEAT
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Manipulation vs. Sensuality
This month’s Shaumbra Heartbeat was difficult to write. Not only is it a sensitive topic for a lot of people, me included, it’s also impossible to address all the nuances and implications in one short article. However, since Shaumbra are ostensibly on the cutting edge of reaping wisdom from past traumas and leading the way into expansion and sensuality, it seems to be a topic whose time has come.
A few weeks ago, I read an anguished email from a dear Shaumbra who had something to say about a handful of graphics recently used in Shaumbra Magazine and the 21 Shaumbra Realizations video. Referring to several images of women, she felt they were too sexualized; that they played into the age-old “sexual ambitions” of men while ignoring the discomfort of women and even continuing damaging stereotypes. Speaking on behalf of several other Shaumbra, she felt it was important to address this “elephant in the room.”
The Crimson Circle staff always pays attention to feedback from Shaumbra. And while we can’t cater to every individual preference, it’s important to consider the overall sensibilities of our audience, not to mention staying in energy integrity. Energy feeding and manipulation of any kind should never be present in anything we do or offer to the world. The email in question was sent to customer service, who forwarded it on to those who choose the images for our various productions, a team that consists primarily of Geoffrey Hoppe, Marc Ritter, Peter Orlando, and myself. We had several discussions about it, and while I can’t speak for the others, I would like to share my own thoughts on this issue.
As part of the CC creative team, I have an active professional interest in the general feeling and appropriateness of the images we use, nearly all of which are acquired from GettyImages.com. Every graphic is chosen to illustrate, support, or enhance the information that’s being shared. Being on this journey for decades (and lifetimes) as a woman – and the only woman on the creative team – I also have a very personal interest in how women are portrayed. After millennia of energy distortions and wounds, it’s a sensitive area, and one that is certainly ripe for transformation.
I grew up in an environment where the body was mistrusted and denied. Physical pain was to be endured without complaint. Physical pleasure (particularly self-administered) was suspect at best, ugly and sinful at worst. A woman’s appearance was to be modest in every way – no trousers, no bare shoulders or knees, and definitely no cleavage. The physical body was essentially an impulsive and shameful thing to be kept under strict control and used solely to carry around the brain. (Being beautiful was suspect, but being smart was everything.) Sex and sexuality were never discussed beyond “Just don’t,” and boys were strictly off limits. As a child I used to pray to God that I wouldn’t have a baby before I was married because it was such a shameful thing. I had no idea how it happened or what ‘being married’ had to do with the process, just that getting it wrong was the worst thing in the world.
Needless to say, when life actually presented A BOY who found me interesting, I didn’t have a clue how quickly things could go from “Hi, what’s your name?” to “Oh my god, I’m pregnant.” At 18 years old, I understood the biological processes but was completely unprepared for the emotional and hormonal components. It was an exceedingly stressful period of my life, and I carried the scars for a long time. (For the record, I now have zero regrets, and just a few weeks ago celebrated my oldest son’s 40th birthday. But it took a long time and a lot of compassion to release the wounds and wounding beliefs I had taken on.)
Tobias used to say that for most Shaumbra this lifetime is a sort of microcosm of our other lifetimes all mashed together. In other words, we’ve allowed circumstances in our lives that trigger old wounds and stuck energies in order to finally let them go, bringing home multitudes of aspects in the process. I’ve had flashbacks of horrors personally experienced by other versions of myself – profound sexual trauma, execution by fire and bullet, powerlessness in the face of male domination, betrayal and abandonment by those who should have protected me, and so on. A lot of the abuse, including in this lifetime, came from religious distortion and control; some of it from ignorance and power imbalances. ALL of it hurt, and the scars run deep. But this is the lifetime to turn them into wisdom.
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Because of my own memories and wounds, I’ve had deep sensitivities to how women are portrayed. Many years ago, for instance, there was a billboard that I saw every day showing a woman’s face with her mouth open in a clearly seductive way. It vexed me greatly. As I said to someone, “It’s as if women are just pin cushions, objects for men to poke.” Over the years I also felt revulsion at women who displayed any degree of voluptuousness or sensuality. Even though I mentally rejected the sense of shame in which I was raised, I had deeply internalized it.
It was only a few years ago that I realized my issues with sensuality and beauty had nothing to do with other people. It wasn’t about how women presented themselves, or even the attitudes of men and memories of things they had done. Rather, it was about the imbalance of my own inner masculine and feminine selves. More than 10 years after first attending the Sexual Energies School (SES), then teaching and going through it many more times, a whole new depth of its potential for healing was finally becoming clear to me.
You see, my inner feminine felt abused, shamed, and abandoned by my inner masculine, and had gone into hiding. My inner masculine, left with the responsibility of taking care of me, felt both annoyed by and impotently protective of her. And any outer reminder of her absence, such as a particularly beautiful woman, just annoyed him even more. I realized that until peace could be found between these inner parts of me, the judgments, resentments, and fears would continue to be projected on situations and people in my outer world. It was a bitter pill to swallow, but I knew it had to be sorted out if I wanted to live in harmony with myself. It wasn’t about gorgeous women or even slutty billboards. It was that the societal problems of sexualizing and objectifying women could only be fixed inside myself.
Now, coming back to the topic at hand, I’m not saying that any and every image is appropriate to use. If my negative emotions are triggered by something, that’s on me. But every image has qualities which may or may not fit with the production at hand. How do we decide if a photo is suitable or not? It’s always a collective choice and each team member has our own criteria. But for me, particularly when it comes to potentially “sexy” images, it’s important to feel what the image is “saying.”
For example, let’s say there’s a beautiful woman who’s showing a bit of skin. I don’t think it’s the amount of skin that matters, but what the image is portraying. Is she having an inner experience of sensual joy that we happen to see? Is she seductively trying to “sell” something? Is the shot staged to elicit a certain kind of response? In other words, what is the energy doing? Clearly, my own filters, conditioning, beliefs, and past experiences may cause me to perceive something different than you do. And society has a long history of reducing women to objects of men’s stimulation and gratification, or temptation and downfall. So, where is the line between the delight of sensual beauty and the trouble of seductive manipulation?
If Shaumbra are to be the Standards for living as sensual angels on Earth, how do we let go of the old triggers and wounds, while keeping the wisdom they offer? Obviously, this is deeply personal for each of us. For me, it’s about looking within every time I’m triggered. It’s about asking, “What am I really feeling here?” and then trusting wherever the answer takes me. It’s a lot easier to turn away from the trigger or ask someone else to remove it, and much more challenging to follow it deeper until the wound is exposed. And then what? Do we blame the men, the religions, the virus, the whatever? Adamus asks at the beginning of SES, “Who’s to blame?” In the end, it’s not about blame but about receiving forgiveness, because that’s where the real solution is found.
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In other words, it’s not about “fixing” a problem and “getting over” an issue. Nor is it about blaming a traumatic event or endemic societal issue, from now or long past. And it’s certainly not about forgiving the perpetrators, because if it’s all my energy, then who really wounded me? True healing comes from receiving forgiveness from my Self to my human for being in all those hurtful situations in the first place.
When I am forgiven for choosing a lifetime of limiting and shaming beliefs, I no longer need to blame my parents, pastors, or past lives. They, after all, were just acting out their own wounds.
When I am forgiven for being in a situation where someone wounded me sexually, the heaviness of that scar begins to lift.
When I am forgiven for bumbling through life harming others and perpetuating abuses myself, the shame and pain of the past become healed, and a future of sensuality and joy becomes possible.
When I am forgiven, it all comes back to neutral.
These wounds run deep, and I will never minimize someone else’s pain. We cannot compare our journeys, only reflect to each other the way to get home. I will continue to enjoy images that celebrate beauty, openness, and sensuality, while also being aware that others may see them differently. And I will continue to remember that when wounds of pain, shame or fear are triggered, it is a gift to be received, for it points the way toward freedom… whenever I’m ready to go there.
Thank you very much for this once again brilliant article from Jean Tinder. After a life of personal responsibility, I now feel “gender-harmonized”. But I still remember sexually controlled assaults in my younger years, which at that time were still celebrated with a great deal of male matter-of-factness. At some point, I worked in an equal organization that was very mindful of this topic. I found the very respectful atmosphere to be a great blessing. We are on the right track.
Dearest Jean
Sorry but your article seems contradictory, and confusing on several levels, at the risk of sounding mean spirited. And why haven’t your three male collaborators been inspired to give us their explanations as well, in response to what I consider a very insightful, pertinent and heart based “anguished email from a dear Shaumbra”.
Hopefully, one of your three wise male committee confreres from Messrs Hoppe, Ritter or Orlando might feel moved to put forth their take on this issue of sexualized pictorials rather than “leave you to hang out to dry”? And why a three men and only one woman imbalance carrying out this important creative task?
And if one of them is brave enough to pick up the pen, then let’s hope the word “love” makes an appearance – as that is all we are, divine love incarnated on Earth. Your article did not mention the word love at all.
When you state that, “If Shaumbra are to be the Standards for living as sensual Angels on Earth…” which has me scratching my head somewhat about what that actually means, I’m compelled to reply that the expression and extension of divine Love is our true standard. Adherence to which spectacularly moves the New Heaven to impregnate and join with the New Earth; so that we – Shaumbra – are miraculously birthed, resurrected and live as human Gods. Being energetically stigmatized bearers of the Christ consciousness and fleshly expressions of the New Human (Homo-Christus Deo) straddling this glorious garden planet, that might in the full light of day cause a mere “sensual Angel” to blush.
If I’m missing the point then please forgive me, as there may be a gap in my spiritual evolutionary odyssey. Perhaps due to the fact that I have never been able to afford the excessive fees charged (in US dollars) to participate in the sexual energy virus courses? That might otherwise have brought me up to speed on these critical issues of sexual energy gender imbalance – seemingly presently offered only to those Shaumbra souls of affluence and privilege. It seems that the financially disadvantaged Shaumbra are excluded from the inner sanctum and secret knowledge – a type of spiritual caste system at play – where we cannot attend certain Shaumbra events without the magical SEV golden ticket pass. I don’t know about Adamus, but Jesus didn’t have a lot of time for the money lenders in the temple. A high five for Jesus! And given Jesus’ track record with financial matters, I’m not sure if he could afford the SEV course fees either. That rules him out of attending live Shaumbra events too. And there is no way he would ask for a loan from his mother. Thank you for kindly taking the time to read this exercise in discernment, offered in good faith and with the upholding of the integrity of Adamus’ ministry in upmost consideration.
Dear Jean,
Thank you for sharing! As a response to Cole I say, that Jesus could not protect Magdalene against what men did to her. That is also not the fault of Jesus. I would love to place a link here from Kuthumi with Celestial Companions that is about returning to wholeness guided/active NON Exercise.
The SEV was merely about becoming aware and helpful in seeing through it, and indeed altering your vision. Yet as you Jean also say, is that we need to go within and continue doing the work until we can forgive ourselves and may no longer want to engage with our wounds, for forgiveness turning into Grace is about shining our Light upon/onto everything without knowing the details. greetz, Nora
So here is the link:
https://eraoflight.com/2023/05/21/master-kuthumi-and-celestial-companions-the-new-divine-masculine-gamma-bliss-consciousness-codes-activation/
Wow, thank you for reminding me of the day long ago, when I shared some of your feelings. I’m so glad to be beyond that time. Don’t give up.
Clarity is the word that came to mind as I read this article. The authors clarity. I feel so much inside and at the same time words are not available to me. This is NOT to dismiss anyone who feels or felt disrespected by the image teams choices in photos. I have always appreciated the beautiful people CC publishes. Day after day, week after week, month after month, and year after year the work that CC publishes is professional and far more interesting than any other publications I could list. I read that the photos in this article are AI generated. That hasn’t always been the case and the photos have always left me appreciating the depth of the attractiveness of the people in the pictures. Be they men or ladies. I feel so much appreciation for your words. Thank you.
Thank You so much for sharing your wisdom Jean…
“True healing comes from receiving forgiveness from my Self to my human for being in all those hurtful situations in the first place.
When I am forgiven for choosing a lifetime of limiting and shaming beliefs, I no longer need to blame my parents, pastors, or past lives. They, after all, were just acting out their own wounds.
When I am forgiven for being in a situation where someone wounded me sexually, the heaviness of that scar begins to lift.
When I am forgiven for bumbling through life harming others and perpetuating abuses myself, the shame and pain of the past become healed, and a future of sensuality and joy becomes possible.
When I am forgiven, it all comes back to neutral.”
and so it is.
✨ thank you 💖
Thanks for your looong thesis. I think my Beloved Adamus would say “Keep it simple and have humor”.
I also noticed that the female images dominated the Shaumbra magazines. How about striking a BALANCE between male and female images used, or perhaps using more images of nature?
Anyway, I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE and truly APPRECIATE the work done by the Crimson Circle.
Thank you.
What human is not able to do — When I am forgiven for choosing……. YES
Thank you.
Such a joy to read it, so much similar experiences
I always loved seeing the women/men in the CC articles and videos, it feels like an acknowledgment to the humanity flesh&bones, to nature/matter sensuality itself, not as a solid thing but the fluidity and beauty of it.
I had countless experiences in this life and others which the body was denied and I’ve been through so much integration, at times so confusing and overwhelming, so this article hit right in the heart, thank you
Thank you for your depth of sharing. For looking within. As always magnificent, and I always look forward to reading your articles.
Well done Jean! A big Bravo for speaking a Universal Truth.
Maybe just add some sensual pictures of men like with a bare chest that would be beautiful. i am sure they can be found just to show similar amount of skin. Also I like when CC makes shows images of people that are not perfectly symmetrical more like the average person features.
Jean,
Thank you.
You always bring such clarity.
Så mye visdom du har..tusen takk, Jean.
Dearest Jean,
Thank you for your insightful article. You always give me clarity and sometimes ah ha moments. After reading this article, a previous insight of my own popped up that I want to share.
The Ho’oponopono prayer: I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you.
My insight was that it needed an addition, and it goes like this:
I’m sorry, please forgive me (AS I FORGIVE MYSELF), thank you, I love you.
Thank you Jean! And Thank you Michelle Hirsekorn!
Since “All the Energy is mine”,
– When I am forgiven, must mean – When I forgive myself!
No one outside my self can forgive me.
Since I am God also.
Thanks God I got that right! LOL
Empiezo por expresar todo lo que recibo cuando de mi Casa, el Crimson Circle y desde los miembros del staff me llegan tantos regalos. Su dedicacion,entrega,trabajos bellisimos. llenos de amor, sensualidad. delicadeza, armonia, sensibilidad y mucho, mucho respeto- Esta es mi Mirada, mucho agradecimiento, ¿Que aporto yo para merecerme esto? Cuando alguien como en este caso Jean desnuda su Alma con esa honestidad como acostumbra y vierte su experiencia tan crudamente sin ningún reparo por su exposición, más que para servir de espejo en el que mirarme, ¿cómo es mi mirada? Siii, se trata de la” MIRADA” Mirada del Observador donde lo que veo sólo está en mi porque fuera no hay nada?
Mirada Crítica que juzga lo que percibe como ajeno a mí ? Abusiva, complaciente Irrespetuosa, Amable, Compasiva. Generosa………. Todo esta ahí. en la Mirada
<<<<<<<<<<<<<Nos Reconocemos en la Mirada. Nos amamos, reímos.y lloramos y también nos sentimos en ella. No en vano el gran dicho que expresa: " Los ojos son el Espejo del Alma " Con qué me quedo ? ¿ Qué Mirada elijo ?
It is not the pictures, it is the hypersexualization of women in general and the consommation of women pictures on the net and in general and the aggression on line with words of disrespect that makes many women sensitive. You could say we are celebrating woman’s beauty but unfortunately this is not the generalize use of woman’s pictures. Eventually we will grow and remember the sacredness of us, the beauty and sensuality, and the joy of our humanity.
Again and again, Jean thank you for your brillant article. Your clarity is extraordinary and genuine. Thank you.
Dear Jeanne,
Your soul can only forgive yourself, when you understand that only you can hurt yourselves. ( Never ever another.) Till then the soul will wait.
Many Shaumbra still love to leave 5% to 10 % with the priest, the partner, the warrior or simply put – the other. Like you in your article.
Your almost there Jeanne, remember also your lives as perpetrator, not only the ones as a victim. The awful things you did to others, I was there with you on the battlefields and in the dungeons. You are so brave to write so openly about so much, now it’s time to breath it all in, especially your dark side. As you already put it so clearly, your soul will forgive. It is a given.
Thank you for the wonderful clarity.
In my opinion all the photos published so far by CC convey perfectly the message because when I look at them, I am able to ‘see’ the energy that emanates from the picture. I have to say that sometimes I stare at the photos, their beauty is truly inspiring.
With sincere thanks and appreciation for all your work and inspiration,
a lot of clarity, depth and experience in the answer given. We all perceive things differently. So it is obvious that although many of us can go further, there will be others who go their way which is also beautiful. Thank you for your beautiful comment about this great sexual imbalance. and as Adamus says, “everything is up in the air.”
Forgiveness is giving up all hope of having had a different past. When I read this quote recently I was surprised by the immediate sensation of peace that flowed through me. Like most (probably all) woman I have experienced sexual trauma and abuse in this and in past lifetimes. The wounds run deep and as they surface now I often find myself overwhelmed – stuck in repetitive patterns of abuse/confusion/denial/anger/despair.
I remember the first time I listened to The Wound Of Isis. After several sessions I became so furious that I could no longer continue the series. It took me at least a year before I could approach the information again. My wounds were just too raw.
Jean’s words ring true for me. Only I can chose to stand in the open. Allow the energies of trauma and abuse to surface and move through me without judgment or resistance – without denial or bitterness – forgiving myself for participating in these cycles of self-harm. Only then am I able to make new choices, breaking the chains of old addictive patterns and allowing my energy to flow freely in new directions.
Right now, the hardest part for me is the toll this process is taking on my body. The intense physical/emotional/spiritual pressure of these times has resulted in my physical breakdown. I imagine hot lava rising beneath the earth’s crust unable to break through the surface and release the build-up of pressure. I wonder – how long my body can possibly endure such prolonged intensity.
This issue of energy distortions and wounds is certainly “ripe for transformation.” Thanks Jean – and thanks to the women who expressed their concerns and feelings – who stood in the open.
Dear Jean, I was the one who wrote this “anguished EMail”. I want to thank you and the team that you took my request so seriously and you took it by heart. I am really surprised and deeply touched by your engaged service for me and others. I will need some time to digest your explanations and the comments of the readers (As not-native speaker it will take a bit longer) and I am sure I will learn something. I send my love and gratitude….
A big hug to you, dear Jutta. <3
Thank you for starting this ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you Jean, one more time for your clarity and wisdom. Most of the time I knew already the subject but your way to address the issue always with mastery writing bring them from blur atmosphere to the Chrystal understanding. Thank you once more.
I grew up in the Scandinavian feminist movement in the seventies, where women were fighting for their rights to be equal to men in education, work, and at home. It was a very successful movement, which changed the society for ever. It became a bit militant, where femininity and sensuality were suppressed. It made me and many others insecure, so I hid and suppressed that part of me for a long time. It is only the last 10 years that I have embraced that part of me fully again, and to really celebrate my womanhood. I have always enjoyed the beautiful images of women from CC, and to me it feels like the images are both feminine and masculine, in a beautiful artistic expression.
I didn’t have a clue how quickly things could go from “Hi, what’s your name?” to “Oh my god, I’m pregnant.” … lol… that’s so funny !
I didn’t have a clue how quickly things could go from “Hi, what’s your name?” to “Oh my god, I’m pregnant.” … lol… that’s so funny !
Thank you for the link Nora.
I always appreciate the accompanying photos of each article in CC magazines, striking, stunning, confident, and beautiful – period.
Thank you Jean for this article. It is insightful, and brings to mind the importance of looking at the meanings I make and the forgiveness I can have for myself. Lovely
Gratidão Jean, adorei esse artigo. bjs!
Clarity of the Master!💎♠️✨
Deep…
Beautiful!
I always enjoy the pictures in the articles and in all CC Creations, they really bring clarity, light, depth and sensuality….
Thank you for sharing Dear Master Jean 🙏❤️✨
GRAAAAAAAZZZZZIIIIIIEEEEEEE di cuore per tutta saggezza che ho percepito dalle Tue parole. Auguri!!!!!
So grateful for the experience of love, wisdom, and clarity you created for this sensitive topic.❤️ I hear my own heart
shining/singing whenever I read your writings. For me, allowing has deepened so much that I have a new motto:
Every shitpile has a diamond inside 🤣
I am who I am, AND choosing my experiences with total responsibility for, YES, I trust myself totally and absolutely knowing my multidimensional existence, simply an unique act of consciousness. AND, thank you dear Jean for your clear expression of this phenomenon. With LOVE I see YOU
Olá Shaumbra. Como um mestre escritor, estou praticando um modo de escrever menos e dizer mais. Então deixo apenas uma provocação:
“A ânsia pela glória do perdão não seria um novo modo de engolir o choro, disfarçar a dor ou varrer a poeira para baixo do tapete?”
Thank you Jane for your wisdom and clarity in your article. So well explained and written !!!
Wow THANK YOU💕💕💕
Querida Jean!!!
Gratidão por mais um artigo,adoro os seus artigos,são leves e profundos.
São sempre os olhos de quem vê,escutei isso várias vezes na vida
Aqui no Brasil,a mídia adora exibir as mulheres que adoram sexualizar seus corpos e ficamos sabendo que essa imagem chega fora do Brasil,generalizando todas as mulheres brasileiras.
Sendo assim esse tema está sempre presente e traz muitas perceções.
Quanto as imagens de mulheres usadas nas publicações do C C,sempre vejo muita Beleza , Valorização e Respeito.São sempre Lindas!!!!!
Obrigada Jean por mais este artigo pleno de sabedoria.
No meu caso a maior utilidade não tem a ver com a sensualidade, mas é muito útil por recordar que sempre que alguma coisa me incomoda é porque há em mim uma ferida e que abrirmo-nos ao perdão da nossa alma é o melhor caminho para a cura.
Thank you Jean, this is so good! X