SHAUMBRA HEARTBEAT

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The Light Within

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This season offers time for a slower pace of life, inner reflection, and the opportunity for renewal. In the Northern Hemisphere, winter solstice signals the gradual return of light, and Christmas itself celebrates the embodiment of the Light of the World. This year, I especially enjoyed the Christmas full moon, admiring the detailed and artistic moon shadows it cast on the brilliant nighttime snow. It’s a time of pause, and even when there’s a lot happening around me, I can still feel the tug of inner stillness, gently inviting me to receive its precious gifts. 

Indeed, the magic of this season – and perhaps of life itself – is always and only found within. What we perceive on the outside is so distracting that it’s easy to forget, but everything we need is within. The answers you seek, the company you crave, the energy you need, experiences you want, insights you desire, services that bless you – none of it begins outside. And, when grounded in that inner stillness, what does appear on the outside, somehow still manifests in harmony with your core Self. 

The last few weeks have been eventful ones for me. I recently finished several days of being in the company of adult offspring and their young ones. I’m clearly out of practice, for the toddlers’ endless curiosity and hectic boundary testing left me craving solitude! But the memorable events started even prior to that. A week before the December Shoud & Christmas party, we hosted the live webcast of the Sexual Energies School from the CC studio. I woke up on the second day of SES feeling unwell and bothered with abdominal pain (“a bellyful of thumbtacks” was how I described the feeling to someone). By evening, despite employing my entire bag of tricks such as breathing, walking, warm tea, hot baths, more breathing, things had gotten worse. Unable to sleep, I kept asking my body what was going on, and every time the same answer came back. “Something’s wrong,” she said, “I need help.” 

Finally, at 2:00 AM, I’d had enough, and I asked my partner to drive me to the hospital emergency room. Being a health-minded woman and self-sufficient Master, I haven’t been to a conventional doctor in more than 20 years. It just hasn’t been necessary. I trust my body to let me know what she needs, and I definitely trust her ability to heal. However, I also understand that sometimes dear body needs more assistance than I can provide on my own, and when it starts from a place of trust and love, anything I choose is there to serve me.

Finally receiving some pain meds in the ER, I could breathe deeply again and sense into the situation. Was something really drastic going on? Could this be an exit point for me? Trying to distract myself in the preceding hours, I had looked up my symptoms online, and of course the worst potentials were still bouncing around my head. Nevertheless, the inner answer was very clear: “No, this is not an exit point. We – body and me – just have some old business to take care of.” 

They put me in a CT scan machine, and soon came the diagnosis: acute appendicitis. Well, that explained it! After having trouble with my appendix since early teens, dear body had had enough of trying to manage it and wanted it gone. I made a clear choice to let a whole lot of ancient imbalances go along with it, sent a “calling in sick” email to Geoff, Linda, and the webcast crew, and was soon heading for surgery. My energy was obviously serving by helping me release a very old biological imbalance, and because of the clear inner communication, I never felt a single moment of fear. It’s just what was happening, albeit uncomfortable and unexpected, and there was nothing to do but trust the process. It all went very quickly – in the hospital at 2:00 AM, diagnosed by 4:00, in surgery by 6:00 and home by 11:00 the same morning! My body’s relief was palpable, the residual pain mild, and I was 90% recovered in time for the Shoud a week later. 

Now, while all that makes for a vaguely interesting story, the reason I’m sharing is to illustrate how immediate and practical the inner wisdom and knowing can be, especially when you listen and trust it (although I admit it took a few hours to make peace with my body’s answer of needing help). I’ve written in the past about how the questions we ask create our reality, which means if you want good information and satisfying creations, you’ve got to ask good questions. Asking “why” hardly ever serves me; the helpful questions are “what” and “how,” such as, “Dear body, what do you need? How can I support you in serving me?” Or, more broadly, “What do I want to experience? What are my desires? What am I ready to release? How can I love myself today? What’s the best way to take care of me in this moment?”

These questions don’t need anyone else to answer them. Although the answer might include availing myself of someone else’s services, the wisdom is all mine in the moment that I need it. And this is the way it was always meant to be – each of us free to create, define, and experience our own reality however we wish. But the outer world became so compelling and believable that we forgot. And in forgetting, we helped others forget as well, until everyone was looking to everyone else for approval, acceptance, authority, and answers. 

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I believe an important part of the light we’re sharing is the reminder that all answers are within, and that they can be trusted. When I trust my own stillness and live by my own wisdom, well, the flip side of that is remembering that nobody else needs me to tell them what to do or how to live. We all know this, but I recently got a good way to remember it.

A friend of mine works with people who are transitioning out of homelessness, which means she and others are constantly interacting with people who have plenty of problems. During training, she reminds the staff members of the two rules they must remember:

  1. Leave work at work; don’t take it on, and don’t take it home.
  2. We are not Life Police; if somebody wants to live in the woods, we help them get a tent.

In Shaumbra-speak, the first one by now should be obvious: The problems and issues around me, even with people I love, are not mine. I’ve gotten better at remembering that, but it’s still very tempting to want to help, fix, counsel, or if nothing else, provide lots of good ideas. But all that “help,” particularly when unasked for, only obscures their own inner wisdom. Which means I must remember point number two: I am nobody’s Life Police officer. 

When my friend used that term, I immediately flashed to memories of growing up in a family of “Life Police” where everything was governed by rules and restrictions generously dictated by dozens of well-meaning relatives. Then I had to cringe at more recent memories of encouraging other people (such as my kids) to make the “right” choices – as if I could possibly know the appropriate course of their journey. The advice might have been perfect if I were in their shoes, but it denies them the privilege of discovering their own wisdom. 

I think it’s an excellent idea to respect the sovereignty of everyone, not just those who think and talk like me, or seem to be making the “right” choices. But wisdom insists that now I take it from “idea” to “reality.” Here’s a few examples:

One of the people close to me is thinking about finding a therapist to help them sort out some life issues. Rather than jumping in and making suggestions and trying to help, it’s time for me to say, “You’ve got this. I know you’ll find exactly who and what you need, and I’m here if you need my assistance.” 

Someone on Facebook is asking for Adamus’ take on certain things, and other Shaumbra are offering their input. However, being online friends with this person, I can see what they post outside the Crimson Circle group, and I’m tempted to point out how their life focus is in opposition to what they’re seeking. But that’s not what they asked about and I’m not their Life Police; they’ll figure it out when they’re ready. 

Then there’s the person who emailed me recently, wishing me well but apparently oblivious to the energy games they play that are driving everyone away. My Life Police officer self wants to helpfully point out what they’re doing, how it makes other people feel, and, you know, change their life for the better. I think this time I’ll let it go and honor their journey. Whether or not they’re in touch with their inner wisdom is none of my business. 

Another person in my orbit has tried a lot of different things, but just doesn’t seem to know what to do with their life – and I am brimming with ideas! However, I’ve decided to keep it to myself (unless asked, of course) and make every effort to see them as the ancient and wise being that they already are. In doing so, I bless myself by stepping away from the outer-oriented role of Life Police and back into my own inner haven of stillness. That’s the only place I can make a difference anyway, for it is where my light exists. 

This New Year, I invite you to spend deep moments in the presence of your Self, opening to the answers within. 

Rest in the stillness at your core, especially when others are dimming their own wisdom. Your light is all they need, nothing else.

Remember, your energy is already serving you perfectly. To see that perfection, just keep watching and trusting, especially when things appear to be going “wrong,” because they might finally be going right.

We never could save the world or anyone in it, although we sure have tried. Even the one we knew as the Savior simply said, “I am the light of the world,” because that’s all anyone needs. 

From externally oriented Life Police officers to shiners of the Inner Light, our job just keeps getting easier. 

Author

  • As Crimson Circle’s Content Manager, Jean is fulfilling her life-long dream to shine light in the world. On a spiritual journey since childhood, she found Crimson Circle in 2002, joined the staff in 2008 and never looked back. Her first book is called “Stories from My Last Lifetime”. She can be contacted via email.

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47 thoughts on “SHAUMBRA HEARTBEAT – THE LIGHT WITHIN”

  5. Andrea Spitzer

    I really enjoyed this article.
    Thank you.
    Also glad to hear that you fully recovered – hard to
    keep a good Master down 🙂
    Andrea

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  7. Ans

    Felt your light shining through while listening to your calm, gentle voice reading your beautiful article. Like an oasis of calmness in the hectic, dramatic world. Thank you for sharing your lived experiences and being your beautiful self.

    Are you reading the article in yourself or is it AI generated based on an example of your voice?

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  9. Ana Aragão

    Beautiful article, I got so much insight into my own life. I also loved the audio version, Jean’s voice adds such a lovely character to the content.

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  10. Jamie Whitman-Smithe

    Thank you. I shall read your article again and again. I feel supported by the information you offer us. Could our lives be any easier? Thank you again. And continued good recovery from surgery.

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  14. Hana Alm

    Hi Jean!
    It was so nice to hear your voice! I have always enjoyed your articles in Magazine. Now I could read AND hear you at the same time.
    I like fixing things, finding solutions, giving tips. Lately I’ve been moderating myself a bit, too. Not being so helpful all the time.
    “Let people figure it out for themselves.”
    I’m going to use this idea “Life Police” to stop me even more often. Thanks for the tip!!!

    Hope you are ok after the surgery.
    I wish you and the rest of the staff all the best in 2024.

    (P.S. I am very grateful to be part of CC. With these wars going on close by here in Europe it is a support often to repeat to myself as a mantra “Don’t take sides”, “Stand behind the short wall”, etc

    It is thanks to the guidance and good advice from our Professor Adamus that one does not get emotionally dragged down into this terrible chaos).
    Warmest regards
    Hana, Norway

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  15. Karen Whan

    Thank you Jean,
    This is a beautiful message … I’ve been notorious for playing the role of being the Life Police, so this year I am ready to hand in my uniform and go into retirement .. “Shining Light Only “😂
    Wishing you a wonderful year ahead 💜
    Karen X

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  17. Birgit Junker

    Absolutely perfect, I couldn’t agree more 💯‼️👍 And if I dive deeper into what you’re saying and feel into the many layers, it’s the perfect explanation of why it’s actually always our own energy. And all the other beings I recognize as “other people” in my life are just part of a different kind of (advanced?) “canvas” onto which I project my energy. Now I can interact and let them be without having to fix “them” because there is truly nothing to fix, as you said (our own energy doesn’t need to be fixed). Now I can really begin to sense the enormity when Adamus says, “There are no other people, it is all your energy” – wow, it is simply mind-blowing! 🤯 Thank you, dear Jean, for being this beautiful advanced canvas that simply shines back an even more beautiful light.
    Big Love,
    Birgit

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  19. Tanja

    Dear Jean thank you so much for sharing this personal inside with us. For me it was the first time i heard your voice and it touched my heart.
    I hope you recovered well and i wish you a great year full of surprises and experiences.
    Big Hug for you

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  20. Patty

    Our Wonderful Jean again answers the questions before I can ask them. You helped me with a current “problem” that I was not listening to my inner self about, but now I can understand why it happened. Love to you our sweet Master friend and guide.

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  24. Pelchat Nicole

    Happy New Year Jean
    I always enjoy reading your article, Jean. You are so full of wisdom and you are speaking the thruth…..
    Long beautiful life full of Love and Light

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  26. Gabriele Tatjana Fleuchaus

    Dear Jean,
    I never heard your voice before, but when I started listening, I was not surprised to hear a voice corresponding exactly to the energy of your wise article, a brilliant reminder as always; helping me to stay away from beeing a Life Police Officer (love this term) with family-members. Thanks a lot!!!
    Love from Tatjana

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  28. Terry Maloney

    Dear Ms Jean,
    Thanks again for keeping it real in The Shaumbra Heartbeat!!! Your sharing of the actual words you use in talking to your body, like “Asking “why” hardly ever serves me; the helpful questions are “what” and “how,” are so much more actionable than six paragraphs of LaLa advice some author trying to sound spiritual might have given!!!!

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  30. Danuse Mitchell

    I love 💖 your voice Dear Jean and also your very timely reminders how to handle my body which is presently experiencing the gravity changes a lot🥲 ….
    Thank you 🙏🏿 ( had my appendix removed about 50 years ago and never missed it 😃💖👍😍 )

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  31. Jutta

    Thank you very much Jean! As I have a flu for a week now, your article has helped me a lot!!!
    Thank you very much my dear🙏🏻Big hug, Jutta from Switzerland

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  41. Jennee Mathews

    “Rest in the stillness at your core, especially when others are dimming their own wisdom. Your light is all they need, nothing else.”
    Thankyou for your words.
    It was just right for me.
    With gratitude
    Jennee

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  43. Christa

    Oh my, the Life Police Officer, I know her just too well!!! Thank you so much for sharing your story. I always enjoy reading them because they are so relatable. Love, Christa

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