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By Todd Oja

This “Allowing” kick Adamus is on has been a challenge. What does “Allowing” really mean? I don’t think it means sitting on the couch eating Bonbons waiting for something to grab me, but I have questions. 

What is all this “Allow my energy to serve me as a Master” and “Let energy work for me” business? 

I have a lot of energy showing up as passion, desire, accomplishment, ambition. Aren’t those my energy too? But somehow, they don’t serve me like the energy that’s associated with “Allowing.” 

Is the “Allowing” energy different in some way? 

Ok, so the Allowing energy serves me, but not the other energy I associate with things like motivation, desire, ambition, passion, etc. because now this “Allowing” energy is different. Ohhh, I see… No, I don’t see!! 

The beatings with the “Allowing” pugil stick will continue until morale improves. Guess I better get the headgear on.

Evidently what I previously thought was “Allowing” is incorrect. *&%$*# (Expression of frustration; the expansive energies of aerotheon contributing to my colorful vocabulary. Pardon me, I’m letting my expansion show). 

I’m just not getting this Allowing thing. Why is it so elusive? I mean it’s so simplistic and almost childlike the way Adamus describes it, but surely, I’m not the only Shaumbra who has been dancing with this “Allowing” message and feeling like I’m just not getting it. Adamus has spent a lot of time on the topic, so it must be important, right? And if I’m the only one not getting it, Adamus surely would have moved on. There must be better use of his teaching time with Shaumbra than being stuck on this Allowing kick only for my benefit, right? Thoughts of being the one holding the whole class back flash before me in the all too recognizable pattern of self-judgment, condemnation and criticism. Ah $*%#-&*!!! Oops, there’s that expansion again!

Turns out that replacing a furnace was going to be the catalyst for my breakthrough around allowing. I was visited – rather my house was visited with me in – it by a tornado last year which did some redecorating of things like the roof, the paint, gutters, deck, fence, etc. (“That’s my energy serving me,” came the snide internal comment. Oh ya, I guess he hears those too.) It took over a year to get all that worked through and just when I felt like I could relax and finally chill, the furnace came knocking. Thank you for waiting until after the tornado but a short breath or three in between would have been appreciated.

Since this isn’t familiar territory, the process commences of researching furnace companies and selecting 5 or 6 to get some options. I mean, it was 25 years old after all. This is not something that I do regularly. Again, I had questions.

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What is a heat pump vs. a furnace? 

What size do I need? 

What is the $$$ that I’m looking at? 

Is it less than replacing a roof or painting the house? Oh, please be the case! 

Then there is the coordination of schedules for each company to come look at my aging equipment… I’m talking about the furnace here. Geez Shaumbra! Keep your minds on track.

They each needed a 4-hour window in which they would notify me when they would be coming over. With 5 companies vying for the job, that is 2.5 days of my time committed to accommodate maybe 5 hours of in-person on-site presence so they can each review the current setup. At this point, I was seriously contemplating sharpening my skills at rubbing two sticks together and using an old coffee can with a dryer vent to pipe the smoke out a window. Then a small company called Plumb Crazy caught my attention (I liked them before even calling). They were a little different. “Send me some pictures and I’ll take a look and let you know if a visit is needed,” he said.

What??? I didn’t need to carve out a full day for a 30-minute review of my current furnace? Done! Pictures are on the way.

We exchanged texts to provide some clarification of the work. Am I thinking about a Cadillac with all the new tech – something that reads my mind, knows when I’ll be home, heats the toilet seats before sitting down – i.e. The AI Furnace Solution, or a VW bug solution? I’m mostly looking to improve on a coffee can with a dryer vent smokestack; you know, just trying to keep expectations reasonable. Then he called and asked if he could schedule me in the next day or two. Say what?! I started the furnace replacement process while it’s still 100 degrees outside so there was no need to rush. In the aftermath of a tornado, I was creating space by starting this process early so I could finally do something at a relaxing pace… or was I?

Plumb Crazy (I do like that name) had scheduled work to fill the week but had just been notified that there was an issue, and their work would be delayed. So, they were looking to fill the recently acquired free time and if I could swing the installation in the next two days, they could give me a discount for helping them out. 

Without going into detail, I thought I was going to have to sell those two sticks to cough up what was needed on really short notice. After the install, that would leave me with about $8.60 in the bank. About enough for a cup of joe at the local foo-foo coffee establishment. Probably an average cup at that. Without the offered discount it wasn’t even an option, so I had mixed emotions. Could I really pull this off? “I will check what I can do and get back to you” was my slightly stunned reply. I needed some time to catch my breath and seriously decide, even if I could swing it, should I? It was just happening so fast. I needed to check my client jobs and availability, other commitments, plus any non-discretionary payments as my accounts were about to be vacuumed clean. (Sure wish my vacuum worked that well.) My mind was trying to grasp it all.

I checked my schedule and saw nothing that prevented either of the next two days being available. Amazing! Now it’s just odd – my schedule working out, their schedule just happening to change at the same time, needing to fill a time slot, and things just “falling” into place. It was also odd that there would be just enough to cover the cost with the discount. This would definitely clean out any excess bank account clutter which is more than a little concerning. With scheduled payment obligations combined with a recent thinning of client jobs, I was feeling a little out of control. As I pieced things together and took a deep breath (where’s Linda when you need her?) the thought came “Allow.” And with that, I became aware of a bigger perspective being revealed. 

An investment organization had gone bankrupt some years ago and still had frozen accounts. Long story short, there was an outstanding court settlement regarding suits against other companies which would be considered assets if won in court. There hadn’t been much promise for that scenario and my reimbursement as a claimant was far down on the priority list. Turns out a suit was won, and I received an unexpected check in the mail just 5 days earlier. I do not recommend that particular financial management program, by the way, but it was a complete and total surprise windfall. I realized that check would just cover what the now discounted furnace was going to cost, and I’d still have a massive $8.60 balance left over. More questions started running through my mind. When will those client calls start coming in? How much is gas now? 

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Ok. “I can make tomorrow work” was my reply. Gulp!

That evening I received another call from the installers. The distributor didn’t have the furnace in stock, but they could provide an upgrade to a better model which they did have in stock, at no extra charge. 

Truly I couldn’t make this up, nor is it something I could’ve planned by any stretch. It required noticing and allowing. I had to show up for my part, such as feeling into and finding potential companies, calling and coordinating appointments. I had to go through the steps and, though I can’t say offhand, there was probably something that brought my attention to Plumb Crazy. Maybe it was just an apropos reflection of my mental state. Sometimes messages are literal. Things were just unfolding, like it all had to happen in the flow and none of it could I have planned out or “made” happen. 

It hit me… This was allowing and I was experiencing it in real-time. As Adamus has said, the big decisions will be taken care of by allowing. It was as if the space in my availability (due to a thinning of client jobs) was deliberately designed so this could take place. My mind was worried about not having jobs booked out and now how was I going to cover the furnace on top of all the other costs? My energy was somehow lining things up for me before I knew the purpose.

Once the furnace was installed, I received more calls from clients and my calendar filled up again. I wondered how long my schedule would have stayed clear if I had not said yes.

Ahhh ok. Now I get the “Allowing” thing a little better.

The thought that continues to come to mind is something Adamus said at a Shoud a while back and it stuck. You know, those gems that just stick when they are right for you to hear and don’t go away. It explains so much now with this experience of allowing. A question was posed to Adamus regarding the biggest lesson for St. Germain in his last lifetime, and his answer was about how he developed a different way of learning. That’s what’s going on with the new physics, the world changes, and shining our light. In this designated ascendee life experience, I’m being “gently” guided to learn differently (I use that word “gently” extremely loosely). I won’t get it perfect, but I now have first-hand experience of allowing. For me, it was noticing that there was a flow beyond what I could personally organize or make happen. Since our energy is always serving us there is not a moment when it isn’t there. It’s about being aware of it so I can better tune in to what’s already there. For me, the noticing is tied to the “Allowing” and then it reinforces more allowing. 

I can hear the Master’s words: “Don’t get in the way. I’m working here.” Not getting in my way has been an issue for the duration of this life. As I get better at noticing, I will continue to increase confidence in seeing how my energy is working for me, and as I see more, so will the allowing. Soon to follow, I suspect I will see the allowing before seeing the energy, even though it’s all happening at the same time.

If your aerotheon experience has been similar to my expansion with cussing or feeling frustrated, not sleeping, or however it’s showing up for you, stay the course and ask for an experience of allowing so that you will recognize it. Be courageous, as there will be many opportunities to “not allow” based on what triggers the mind.

Whether it’s about creativity, shining our light, energy as our inter-communication, or expanding gravity, I’m committed to learning differently. 

The bell has rung. Class is in. Must be time to learn. $#@&*!