SHAUMBRA HEARTBEAT
✨AI Generated
To Embody
Love
By Jean Tinder
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The last few weeks have been memorable for me, a crash course in allowing that often felt more like just crashing. But no matter what happens or how crazy things seem, I know there are always deeper layers, threads of connection and gems of wisdom hiding in the chaos. And when the treasures seem elusive, if I remember to step back, breathe, and ask “Why?” instead of “Why me?” the answer always appears.
First, the Stories
Exactly one week before the Crimson Circle 25th Anniversary celebration and Shoud on August 3, I was at the local home improvement store collecting lumber for a house project. Pulling an extra-large timber from the overhead rack, something slipped, and the wood jerked my hand. I finished lifting it down, then realized something felt weird and looked to see an impressive “kink” in the 4th finger of my left hand. That’s going to need more than a home remedy, I thought. Dang it. I put the lumber acquisition on hold and got my dislocated and fractured finger put back together. With one hand out of commission, my house project – all of them, in fact – would have to wait.
But other challenges were brewing. Two days before the Shoud, we had to say goodbye to my precious kitty, Orion. He had been ill for a while, wasn’t getting better, and was starting to have difficulties with daily life. It was the kind thing to do, but oh so hard. After I made the decision, he came and sat with me for a long time, as if to reassure and thank me. So, with his family holding and surrounding him, we said goodbye to our beloved companion, the kindest, smartest, most tolerant and patient cat I’ve ever known. I was grateful for the busyness of the next several days to provide some distraction from the hole in my heart.
Then, during the Shoud Adamus asked Shaumbra “What makes Earth and humanity so unique?” My answer came immediately: Separation. All the other things that were mentioned – compassion, families, relationships, music, food, nature, art, creativity, sex, love itself – are possible only because of separation. How can you have music unless sound is separated into notes? How can you have art unless light is separated into colors? How could you discover the preciousness of love without its loss? How could you love another if you didn’t feel separate from them? And how could you possibly learn to love the person in the mirror if you’d never separated from your Self? The separation we experience on Earth makes all the other wonderful things possible, but it also hurts.
A week or so later, we traveled to the east coast to participate in my partner’s family reunion. It was a lovely time hanging out with each other in various settings, everyone vying for time with everyone else. How interesting, I thought. Instead of trying to get away from each other, they want to have MORE time together! Not being accustomed to that level of family togetherness, I found it quite beautiful and a little overwhelming. But the personal adventures would continue.
Waiting at the airport to go home, I began noticing pain in my chest. It started out somewhat dull, but over the next few hours slowly became excruciating. I remembered reading that a heart attack should be dealt with immediately to prevent permanent damage, but was it really a heart attack? I had no idea; it just hurt like hell. Finally arriving back in Colorado, my partner took me directly to the hospital where I spent a very uncomfortable night. After running over a dozen tests and trying three strong pain meds (morphine didn’t even faze it!), they finally settled on a diagnosis: pericarditis – inflammation of the lining around the heart. I didn’t even know such a thing existed in my body, but the meds for that issue finally brought relief. (And I was relieved to learn that my heart itself appears to be in excellent health.)
I went home exhausted, relieved, and a little achy. The next day I came down with covid, commencing my second dance with that particular little demon and triggering CC production delays followed by a tired scramble to catch up. At this point, I’m glad to see the summer of 2024 in the rearview mirror!
Now, the Wisdom
A day or two later, sitting quietly with my morning coffee and feeling stuffy, sniffly, achy, and generally pathetic, I wondered what it was all about. I’m not into suffering anymore and had no sense of the old “martyrdom” or “purification” overlays of the past. But the discomfort was very real, and I wanted to understand why it was there. A lovely little set of “oracle cards” created by a friend sat on the table next to me and I felt inspired to draw one of them as a gentle way of communicating with my Self. What was all that heart pain about? The cards are simple illustrations of everyday things, and I drew “Ice.” Reading the accompanying text, I felt it connect with something very deep.
I had already noted the striking differences between my partner’s family and my own. I grew up in a controlling, critical, and judgmental environment, and to this day, most family conversations are safely weather related. In contrast, I’d just spent several days with a family that is loving, supportive, and encouraging to each other. They want to genuinely connect at every opportunity! Of course, there are a few old issues and interpersonal challenges, but the overall family vibe is joy, support, and openness.
Pondering all this and looking at the Ice card in my hand, a dawning understanding started leaking from my eyes. The new experience of connection was highlighting the separation I felt growing up. Let it melt, my Self whispered. Just let it melt. But then it expanded far beyond just family.
How many lifetimes have I isolated my heart, judged its desires, closed off its feelings, and tried to ignore its presence? How many protective layers of ice have I built up around it? Yes, sometimes it was for safety, but it was also to guard the inner drive that ultimately got me to this very moment. Lifetimes in convents, giving up children, dying for causes, diving deep into suffering – that stuff doesn’t leave much space for an open heart. But now is the time to let my heart soften… open… expand… go beyond the old boundaries. But oof, blow out its lining? I’ve always taken things a bit too literal…
✨AI Generated
Looking at the Ice card and melting a bit more, I pondered the whole subject for a long time. As we open to the idea of Love 2.0, the question comes: what does it actually mean to love? The old definitions and expectations feel lacking, but I have to start somewhere. So, perhaps a better question: When have I felt the most loved? That’s easy. I have felt most loved when someone has simply offered their presence. Not good advice (which can be helpful). Not romance and devotion (which can be fun). Not doing everything for me (I’m not helpless). Not imposing their will (that’s just maddening).
To me it’s simple. Love means being fully present, no matter what’s happening. This is not easy when the one you love is hurting or angry or sees the world differently or exists in any other state of separation. I want them to change in some way so I can be more comfortable! I want them to stop hurting! I want to fix things! Failing all that, I’d rather leave the situation and separate myself from more discomfort. But that’s not Master Love.
Master Love is open, vulnerable, present, self-possessed and agenda-free. Master Love witnesses exactly what is, as it is, and doesn’t try to change a thing. Can I really be a Master at love? Can I offer that level of presence and compassion to others? And – the real challenge – can I offer it to myself, no matter what’s going on inside or what dumb thing I’ve just done?
This whole string of adventures was about opening to love, and my Self was making the point very clearly. The next morning, I awoke to a bunch of messages from my beloved friend Amir Yakobi (formerly part of Yoham). He is one of the most pure-hearted souls I know, and it’s always a delight to hear from him. For the past few years, he’s been creating “sound journeys” and other musical expressions (some of which you can listen to here). He steadfastly imagines a world where war is no more, where love is all, and magic abounds. He told me that he’s been “time traveling” into the future and brought back a message from the AI of the future (which you can read here) When it comes to embodied love, Amir does nothing but inspire me.
Absorbing his music and messages, feeling his dream – the Shaumbra dream – more ice began to melt. I felt grief – for our dream held distant so long, for so much human suffering – but I also felt new glimpses of joy; the hope that, just perhaps, some of us on this old planet are done with the separation and sorrow. But now, instead of leaving, we are beginning to live and embody the answer. And that answer is simply Love.
Many years ago, Tobias said “love has no connection.” It was a head-scratcher at the time, but I get it now. When you bond or connect to someone, it naturally comes with expectations and conditions. If I’m tied to someone else (or to my own aspects), I don’t want them to veer off course and pull me with them, so I try to either change and control the situation or leave it and go back to separation and protection. But neither one is the compassionate, vulnerable presence of Master Love.
Yes, my heart is literally cracking open, but it isn’t just about family stuff. It’s about this entire journey. The pain and separation of the world has been too much to bear, so I put myself on ice, thinking that was the answer. It helped for a while, but things are changing now. I’ve been seeing shadows, reflections, mirages of the new world, as if memories of future dreams are coming to life. I feel the icy sorrow of eons beginning to thaw, and yes it hurts, but only temporarily. The new world won’t be about control, conflict, suffering and hiding. We are birthing a new world of softness, creation, non-binding connection, openness, trust, joy. To be in that world, I must embody those qualities myself, and I cannot do so unless I allow the thaw. It hurts sometimes, but it’s the pain of life renewing.
To embody love is to be present – with myself, with another, with the world, politics, strife, the ‘other’ – as a compassionate witness to what is. That’s the light that illuminates new potentials. I was listening to someone fuss the other day and, for a change, keeping all the bright ideas and solutions to myself. Suddenly they came up with a solution all on their own! I don’t know if they felt loved or not, but I felt myself embodying love in that moment.
And that’s what this string of misadventures was all about for me. Breaking the “heartline” finger, losing my dear kitty, experiencing a new kind of familial love, blowing through the old confines of my physical heart, and then enforcing a few days of foggy body-brain down time to absorb it all with less resistance. It’s been a month of busting through, a crash course in making space for new love, real love, a Master’s Love.
We are here to embody love, to finally embody Christ on Earth.
So very beautiful Jean, my heart was singing with each realization. What a world we are creating now….finally knowing our own heart songs💓
Jean,
Bless you.”To finally embody Christ Consciousness on Earth.”
At long last.
My life right now. Blowing through old limitations and walls around my heart. Struggling through a particular relationship and bringing clarity and wisdom in and ended up uncovering more about me so I can move into Love 2.0. Thank you for the article.
AND I thought I had a “ruff” summer with my dog adventure I’m just recovering from… Gee you win Jean! But seriously, I have always loved your articles and heart-felt sharing but this story tops them all! Interesting your column is called “Shaumbra Heartbeat”… I sense a new rhythm in your writing – and life!
So beautiful ❤️
Obrigada Jean, me vi escrevendo o artigo com vc.
🙏❤️✨❤️✨❤️✨❤️
Thank you a lot for this wisdom sharing Dear Master Jean!
Much same….
And so it is!
New Love….💕🪽♠️🪽💕
Your article sent me on a rollercoaster of feelings and insights. What a gem of wisdom again! Thank you for sharing your so very personal stories and your light. ❤️
Thank you so much Jean for all your wisdom It helped me a lot , I also had a rough few weeks ! Still recovering and it helps listening to you beautiful insights
Thank you for this dear Jean! So relatable, so helpful and heart opening 💝
Wonderful how you share very personal issues and experiences and then come to insights and link them to the greater theme.
Thank you.
❤️❤️❤️
I should feel some relief or at least some deep connections after reading about your latest experiences but I haven’t ‘drawn a card’ yet. My Stories…1- Eye Doctor Visit with Emotional Flashback and Anxiety Attack. 2- Gracie Mae, my matriarch kitty was taken by a winged predator. 3. I fell into a Deep Dark Pit of Loneliness. 4. Extremely High Blood Pressure 5. The roof of my RV started leaking. 6. I got COVID.
I appreciate your sharing which has helped me to straighten up my Master Crown. Your experience gave me Wings of Hope and my divine self just handed me a card called Allow! Again with the Allowing hum mum hum!
Thank-you for dressing in words all the feelings emerging from within.
Connection…Heart warming allowing
Beautifully expressed!
All the best
So much wisdom among these beautiful experiences. Looking at life like this, it is worth being on this planet in these moments of so much light.
WoW Jean! Just wow!
So much depth and wisdom here!
Thank you!
Dearest Jean ….. there’s something personal from your article in here for me. I too, in most recent weeks have been focusing on my heart space. It not only feels locked but more importantly, it feels blocked. Something sits there deliberately and I’m not feeling ME there right now. So I’ll sit with your beautiful writing which I’m sure will help lead me to my own Heart OPENER.
Thank you for sharing yourself with us! You lead in the most unassuming ways!
Thank you dear One!
So happy to be walking with you!
Love & many Blessings to you!
Oh, our Sweet Jean, how you open my eyes and heart so easily each month. You are our Master Gift of Love to all Shambra. Thank you once again for your story which gives me pause to see where I am going. With so much Love, Patty
You make me feel so real, your words of life help me see all is well. It’s so lovely how our bodies give us a little nudge. So happy you’re here with us. Much love jean. Xx
“When it opens, the heart hurts because of muscle aches”. I don’t know who said that, but I concur. Thank you, dearest Jean, for your cool experiences and your incomparable way to tell them. Big (Master) love 💜
Sublime tu mensaje Jean, toca el alma. Gracias por compartir esas tremendas experiencias. Abrazo.
Just beautiful – as are you!
Your photo that flashed by during the last Shoud was/is magnificent – and now
I more fully understand the light that was shining through.
Your heart, light and wonderful words are felt through-out the world – And you look fabulous!
Can’t wait to read/hear about all your next adventures.
Thanks for taking me along for the ride.
What fun we’re going to have 🙂
Once again such Brave sharing Jean, Aend lotsa wisdom in “if I remember to step back, breathe and ask ‘why’ instead of ‘why me’ the answer always appears”. I’m going to try that soon!!!!
Благодарю! Слёзы,чувственность,присутствие…это так созвучно!
Just beautiful! Thank you
Masterful!!! Thanks so much, Jean!
How beautiful… and touching Jean… love your thawing… and to embody love. I feel the walls falling…, the ice melting with me also. Thank you for a truly beautiful sharing.
Hi Jean,
Thank you !!!! It is a beautiful article, wonderful !!!!
I want to share a story, when I read about Orion‘s cross over.
15 years ago I had a cat named „Giuseppe“. He did not understand that the sofa was a place to relax and cuddle. He found it much interesting to expand his litter box there.
The result was: I didn‘t have a sofa for 13 years, because than the cat—hygiene works.
When I moved to another apartment I finally wanted a sofa and I told Giuseppe that urgently. At that time he was alredy very ill, but surprisingly he was able to go to the litter box, may be 8 times a day. 10 weeks later he crossed over.
Since then, giuseppe comes to me three days before another pet crossed over. He is around me and gently accompanies the cat in his/ her transition in the other realms.
His work as a dreamwalker for the cats that crossed over and the guidance for me is working since 15 years. He sais „ thank you“ in his own way!
It is a deep love present !
We are our pets and our pets are we: and we give love to ourselve in a beautiful way AND in connection with the other realms.
There is so much more we can discover…..
I wish you a special wonderful day and greetings to all!
Bine / Germany
That’s so beautiful, thank you Bine! I have felt Orion with me a few times since he passed… 💖
That was in my awareness ….and I wrote the post 🙂
Holymoly Jean, great one, thank you!
In my own story I also had/have..why???
all about (self) love
Thank you Jean for the beautiful words of Wisdom.
Dear Jean … thank you for reminding me …
In the last few months, a kind of bitterness has crept in on me… not much, just a little.
My right foot hurts so much that I don’t like being out and about. It ruined my being in the nature, being in the city, … being in motion. Sometimes a lot, sometimes less. At some point… after I had tried to “sit it out” (in other words: I practiced acceptance) … I asked “why”… “old pain in my body that it had never felt.” All interventions were in vain. The summer was therefore very homely.
Thank you for the reminder: … Love… for me… unconditional…
By reading and sensing your words, your energy, walls of ice are melting. Thank you so much Master Jean.🌸🦋