By Anastasia McMillan

A bench. An ice-cream stand. Parents waving. A flowerbed. A dumpster. Riding in circles can be fun for a while. The motion, the familiar tune at the background, the scenery changing: the dumpster, the bench—until at one moment, you feel that if you see that ice-cream stand again, you’re just going to get sick. Embodied enlightenment, the awareness of one’s spirit, puts an end to the merry-go-round of human experiences. But what else is there in store for me if I’m staying on the planet?

The Apocalypse opened a potential to see the unseen, to explore unfamiliar, to discover unimaginable, to create new. “Click, click, click…” Going up the roller coaster, still not seeing the perspective of what’s ahead, but knowing that it is going to be quite a ride. If you’re feeling uncertainty, disconnection, excitement, anxiety, hope, and at the same time a sense of completion, and a deep passion for total freedom, welcome to the club!

After bringing Shaumbra a felicitous message about the upcoming Heaven’s Cross and about the wonders of realm work, Adamus Saint-Germain asked Crimson Circle to start tracking how masters are going to be living through those unprecedented times. It is important, it is peculiar, and besides, most Shaumbra are hesitant to chronicle their experiences in a consistent way. The Apocalypse—what better place to start? So, the task is to record masters’ experiences of going “into the Apocalypse”. How do you find willing parties? You let them come to you. All the participants of this project were attendants of a live workshop Staying in Grace in November 2022. Coming from different parts of the world and from various walks of life, they each bring their own unique character to our story of the Apocalypse. Two engineers, two educators, a medical doctor, a psychologist, a physicist, a journalist, a dancer, and a musician. A few are trained practicing healers, a few are writers—so indicative of the Shaumbra journey.

Feel them. They are all very present, and I’m quoting them throughout this text. They are here, smiling, greeting you and wishing you well from the bottom of their human hearts that have lived through a lot. They are welcoming you into their space, to their homes or wherever they happened to be at the time of the interviews. They are inviting you to get comfortable and join the conversation about things that mean so much to all of us, about matters that sometimes are too unusual or too personal to discuss with friends or family—unless it’s Shaumbra family. Over the course of a year, we did five rounds of conversations with all the participants, and you’ll see how their environment reflects their personal story.

As the project manager and the interview host, I was pondering how to go about the task of creating a proper energetic space, and I asked Adamus for advice. He jumped right in: he was expecting the question and was delighted to offer input, “No agenda and no judgement!” To formulate a set of questions for each round of interviews, I was feeling into each person and identifying the main elements that, in their turn, would also reflect what Shaumbra were going through at the time. Everyone wanted to know the questions in advance: when you’re about to be asked to describe your physical, non-physical, and metaphysical experiences on camera, you feel the need to prepare, especially if you are expressing yourself in a foreign language (only two of our participants are native English-speakers). And when the camera is set up, the ring light is on, and you hear, “Recording in progress”, you want to be ready.

It is amazing how some experiences can be a challenge, a blessing, an honor and a precious gift—all in one. Those who were involved in the project gained a lot from it, and I’ll briefly share a few things I witnessed in the process.

Over and over, I’d be hearing a master sharing their story, and I’d remember, “This is exactly what Adamus said ten years ago! This is what he mentioned talking about this subject. Those were his exact words.” The parallels between Adamus’ messages and real experiences of masters were countless. And it works the other way around, too. There were quite a few times during the year when I’d notice Adamus say things that I’d heard from my dear masters during the interviews. “That’s exactly what she said a year ago! And now that Adamus expanded on it, I finally understand what she meant back then.” Concepts, titles, facts of life—Adamus is selecting and delivering messages from the collective wisdom of Shaumbra.

What first looked like a fortunate, yet fairly random choice of participants, has eventually revealed a clear connection. As we delved into the history of the message of “self-love”, I realized that most of our participants, including me, were part of Yeshua’s community 2000 years ago. Carrying the ignited light of self-love inside our being since those times into the time of the Apocalypse, we now collected our energies as “messiahs”, or “masters”, to ground it in this point of human history. Funny enough, if you listen to the masters speak, nobody fancies being a leader or a savior anymore.

Revelations and realizations may visit you at any moment, yet getting more clarity about one’s own energy is as simple as occasional “How am I feeling? What’s going on in my energy right now?” When we consciously put our awareness to our feelings and energy dynamics, it illuminates the energy design behind events and emotional states. That very simple act of putting your awareness onto yourself can lead to many eye-openers, “I thought I had nothing to say in answer to this question, but…” Once you poke through the veil of the human perspective, realizations and insights start pouring in. What’s crucial here is to palp your energy with your awareness and not let the mind manipulate metaphysical notions. The awarenesses will always be multilayered, “It’s funny how I wrote an answer to this question, but now that we’re talking, something completely different comes up.” Consciously feeling into energy design allows you to distill wisdom from the experience right in the process of going through it.

And as you are getting more conscious, “your light hits the mud” and brings out things that are waiting to be clarified and purified. Before it gets lighter, it seems like it gets darker and heavier, and you know it’s a D-day—you have a visitor. On a number of occasions, right around the time of the interview, our participants would experience the same symptoms that Shaumbra are so familiar with by doing workshops: sudden health issues, things happening, things not working out. Dragon days accompanied me into the film production too. Going through the project was fascinating, but not easy by any means.

All the books we’ve ever read, all the tricks we’ve ever learned, all the skills we’ve developed, all the tools we’ve created and used—all we’ve ever done throughout lifetimes to prepare ourselves for being right here right now—it’s all part of our energy, and we don’t need to look for answers outside of ourselves. “At any given moment when I do a task, I end up having everything I need for doing that.” And it becomes available just by putting your consciousness onto it. The masters share their experiences in dealing with different issues, and the common thread in their stories is that answers, solutions, and resolutions come from within, regardless of their subsequent manifestation. 

At one of the Kasama workshops, Adamus acknowledged that not being heard is a form of suffering. Shaumbra know all about it. Not fitting in, hiding, shrinking one’s energy—we are used to not being seen. But when you create a space for Shaumbra to open up, to spread their energetic wings, to speak up, then magic happens: their eyes light up, their energy starts scintillating, and you hear incredible stories. Most participants felt intimidated by the interview process, but at the end, all have blossomed once they got used to the camera. For some, it was a very rare occasion of being able to speak their truth, “this time, without getting killed”. A space where you can express yourself freely and be heard and acknowledged is such a precious and much-needed experience for many Shaumbra.

Do you need mentors to realize your true divine nature? Do you have to take classes to be aware of yourself? Can anyone teach you how to be enlightened? There’ll be no spoilers if I say “no” to all. And yet, so many of us are happy to have support on our way to and through embodied mastery, so many are grateful for the company of fellow Shaumbra. The ultimate purpose of this project is to collect and share stories that will help others make sense of what they are going through and let them know that they are not alone in their feelings and experiences, especially when there’s no friendly Shaumbra shoulder to lean on. Into the Apocalypse offers no teachings, no proclamations or pontifications, only real-life stories shared by human masters.  

We recorded the talks with the masters via Zoom to share our stories in the format that is most common these days—through a series of films. I hope you’ll feel the energies of those who contributed to these conversations. I hope you’ll see the masterly hand of Jonathan Kray, producer of the Rude Awakening movie, who shaped the interview material into master stories on screen. Created out of passion, with “no agenda and no judgement”, they are a tribute to the journey of Shaumbra and to all beings who’ve been helping the “bringers of light” along the way. Enjoy the films—and your own story!

The first two of five Into the Apocalypse films are now available, free of charge.