By Lena Jey

“Becoming.” To me this has always been an infinitely beautiful word in every way I can sense. It comes to me again and again, most often at the end of one chapter of life and the beginning of a new one. “Becoming” doesn’t stand still; it opens up like a beautiful never-ending flower. 

I felt and heard the full meaning of this word during the Sexual Energy School of Crimson Circle. It seemed like thunder in the clear sky; suddenly the significance of Becoming opened to me, and everything became simple, easy and clear. For the first time I felt “This is it, the very meaning I had not been able to grasp.” Now I got it.

Becoming has become my point mark. It is like an invisible and yet tangible reminder of who I am and reasons behind all this experience that the human aspect has passed through. 

Becoming makes a difference, not only in my sense of life. It is also an important milestone, such as when a caterpillar becomes a butterfly. I’m sure you’ve heard the story of this transformation many times, but now I invite you to feel the moment when the cocoon cracks open and the wings appear. This is an amazing emergence of a new creature. It’s an exciting transformation and at the same time completely natural, the becoming of a new life with a new body. I could see the similarity of bringing the light body into the physical body of a human being. It’s an uncomfortable and unbelievable process, similar to the caterpillar turning into mush to become a different form of existence. 

Noticing yourself as the creator of everything that happens to you is another great example of becoming. It is recognizing your right to create – and also to uncreate – things in your life. It means recognizing your divine nature, realizing yourself as a god. 

Becoming, as I feel it, brings you to the next level every time you say, “I am ready.” The Master inside each of us knows how to manage this process beautifully and elegantly. It’s as if wings are unfolding and you are already soaring gracefully in your new reality, as easily as if you have always been there, just as a butterfly simply flies away. At this moment the past has already been released, and the future has not yet come. You are at the moment of Now, your moment of becoming. 

All these transformations are happening not only in the imagination and non-physical realities; their reflection is naturally found in everyday activities right here on Earth. 

My daily life often includes some kind of expression. It could be something simple, like creating pictures or cooking, or more complex like writing text for a book or an article, creating choreography or a dance video recording, or a video for a blog. I like to interact with the world through art, no matter how simple or complex the process, no matter what skills are required. And when everything is ready, I feel joyful and satisfied. 

I always like what I do, although this certainly does not mean that other people will like or even accept it. As a deeply sensitive being, I can feel everything from delight and smiles to indifference and judgment, especially as my creation leaves my own realm and goes out into the world and mass consciousness. In the past I had long struggled with the tough feelings when I felt that someone did not like my creation and could not see what I see and feel in it. However, with the unfolding of self-love and the becoming inherent in every shift of consciousness, I have gone through a journey. Like many of the Masters of the past, I’ve gone from constantly trying to improve myself, with its subsequent indifference, to holding and radiating my light, first to myself, by accepting, honoring, and valuing me and what I have to offer. I no longer waste my energy on things that make me feel unloved, unimportant or unworthy. I prefer to be in my own light and continue to express my visions. 

In such becoming, the physical body ceases to support anything that is not related to or compatible with love. And if it does pick up something unwanted, such as a cold or any infection, it goes away very quickly as balance and well-being is restored. In fact, the whole world of my relationships with energy is changed. Personal relationships with others, relationships with work, with food, with aspects, with money or with my physical body – they all transform into love as a result of changing the relationship with myself. This is a huge shift, and without this important step it wouldn’t be possible to bring the light body into my being. 

I saw how the periods of becoming with each new expansion replaced the old linear marks of “classic” humans. By “linear” I mean the linear timeline of when a person was born, went to school, graduated college, got married, had children, bought a car, a house, planted a tree, died. These stages of living are present and still important, but even more important now are other periods that include personal transformation and transition to the next step of my own inner evolution, the becoming of my soul. Everyone who goes through the path of realization has many such moments of becoming, both small frontiers and big leaps into the life that one dreams of living. 

✨AI Generated

I’m currently observing my new period of becoming. It was quite clear for me that I have to restart my life after working in other realms, although at first it seemed that I was already retired and now would literally sit on the park bench for the rest of my life. For a year after the Opening of Heaven’s Cross I did just that. It was the only thing I could do – be in nature and feel myself and my whole body. And then somehow, almost imperceptibly, I began to feel my strength slowly increasing. I began to teach dance classes in groups again, created two websites, and finally finished my second book about light body. I also began receiving the first clients to my energy course about self-love, which I created about three years ago. And now I feel the desire to be with people, to dance with them and just communicate. Slowly – and also as fast as I allow – life is filling with my new creations. Now, more than ever, the becoming of who I am is felt in density. I recognize this in every new turn, in each sentence and interaction. And most importantly, I feel how this flower is endlessly blooming inside me. 

Becoming a divine human is, I believe, a tremendous experience in itself. Being with your light body is something new on this planet. Everyone who can give this to themself, has their unique insights, revelations, and difficulties. My own challenge was to feel me inside myself all the time, to fully accept my energy into the human body, which was only possible for me after Heaven’s Cross. And now I wonder again what it is like to live a human life on Earth and to know my divinity at the same time.

I would like to share a quote. A few years ago, I might have shared something from a book that touched or was important to me in some way. Or it could be a quote from a favorite author, for being an author, I also have my favorite phrases from others. But now with my personal becoming, the most appropriate quote comes from my own book “The Body of Love,” for it is the voice of my soul. 

“When I bathe in love for myself, everyone else also bathes in love in my world, in how I perceive the world. Perception is my key. How I can change my perception, it changes my attitude. It changes the color on the canvas as I paint my reality. I can switch, connect and combine lights, shapes, geometries, sounds like in a kaleidoscope, changing shades and my own perception. I can fill the picture, expand the boundaries, narrow down to dots, blur and smudge, focus and define. I can generously share and receive.

Love in its state makes anything special. Love fills everything it touches. This golden pink nectar, so delicious, so sweet. Love is impossible to miss, it shines, rings, beckons and attracts everything that can perceive it. And when it comes and settles inside, everything else happens instantly. What is in resonance with will increase, what is not falls apart or disappears.

Love is one of the strongest and most desired feelings on Earth; there is no one indifferent to it while a soul being is in the body. Its source flows within every heart, regardless of all reflections in manifestations. Self love fills the whole world. Self love fills my whole world.”