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Have you ever wondered how to connect, communicate with, and enjoy the presence of your soul self? I think one of the most common questions among Shaumbra is something like “How can I feel my soul? How do I know it’s even here?” I suppose that makes sense, because what’s the point of remembering who we really are if, as humans, we still feel lost and alone? It’s one thing to have a mental understanding of these high-minded concepts, but when they don’t become lived experiences right away, frustration and sadness can set in.

At some point in the search, my own soul whispered the idea that approaching the issue from an entirely different direction might bring a very different experience. She pointed out that I was looking outward for her, instead of recognizing that she’s already within. Sure, I’ve heard all that before, but it finally registered that when I identify as my limited human self, those inherent limitations make it difficult to experience my divinity! But this new way to perceive Self has proved to be so effective that I’d like to share it with you. 

The most important thing to remember is that it’s ALL you. If your perceptions feel restricted, it’s because you’re identifying yourself by those limits. It would be like your hand, nose and eyes each identifying their unique perception of an apple as the only reality. But they are all parts of you, and acknowledging their part-ness allows them to feel connected with you and therefore able to enjoy your full apple reality. The same way, acknowledging your own part-ness as the human – and therefore the connection to your wholeness – is one of the quickest ways to feel the bigger Self reality. Instead of longing for your soul as the forgotten, lonely human, you can instead reach for your human as the loving, compassionate essence of Soul – and have an entirely different experience. 

It’s all about how you identify yourself, so try this with me:

✨AI Generated

Take a deep, gentle breath, and feel your body. Notice if it’s relaxed or tense, whether it feels lonely or at peace. Notice how it takes up space and if there’s anything it needs or wants. Just breathe and feel.

Now, let the body be as it is, and imagine yourself as a big fluffy cloud. Maybe it’s a lovely pastel color, maybe gold or white, but it floats gently as you breath. Imagine this cloud of You now coming close to your human, enveloping the body completely in total acceptance. Notice how it feels to hug your brave, weary person.

Take another gentle breath, and now notice the loving presence that’s enveloping you, the human. How does that feel? Breathe it in. Receive it. Feel yourself being finally, truly seen and deeply understood.

Keep breathing, and now go back and forth between these perceptions – enveloping your human in a cloud of love, and then being the one enveloped. Maybe one of you has a message for the other; you can take turns listening. By indulging in this experience often, you’ll begin seeing how easy it is to connect with You.

Because we live in such tight Focus, only a slight adjustment – a subtle shift of perspective, a different viewing angle – makes all the difference, because YOU are all right here. What you experience is based on where you’re looking from, not what you’re looking for. 

A few weeks ago, I had the remarkable experience of an ocean swim with manta rays. (They are massive, like winged cars swooping inches from your face!) While we snorkelers stayed at the surface, the tour also included divers who would watch the manta rays from a different vantage point. As they were getting ready, I heard the guide asking people how much extra weight they needed, apparently to help them descend to the ocean floor, about 10 meters below us. You could say they were packing on extra gravity to help them stay in that unnatural environment.

I don’t know much about deep-sea diving, but I imagine it’s a lot like immersing our angel selves into physical reality. We had to build the gravity anchors to keep us embodied, along with special equipment like a body and brain to help us navigate. Like deep-sea diving, it’s clearly dangerous and a bit hard to maneuver. Everything is dark and blurry, it’s hard to breathe, and the pressure is almost unbearable. Not to mention all sorts of scary things that might show up out of nowhere! So why the heck are we even here? Well, why do divers dive? For the experience, of course! 

In fact, the experience has been so fascinating that we kept coming back until it was easy, until we knew our way around and even began to enjoy this dense environment. Like building castles under the sea, we made our home, moved in, and started exploring every nook and cranny. But it’s not our REAL home, and after being here so long, some of us deep-see divers are feeling a bit waterlogged, pickled, and ready to head back to our natural environment. It’s been a great adventure, but I miss the buoyant feeling of moving and breathing easily, free and full of light. 

So, let’s go home, right? Trouble is, with all this gravity holding me down, how can I possibly get back to the surface? Studying, kicking and swimming as hard as possible just wears me out. I learn stuff, but the whole thing is too difficult – the weight is too heavy, the gravity too strong – and I feel stuck in this density where everything is dark and sharp and heavy and serious. As the human / diver in this scenario, I’ve called out for help countless times. But there’s been so little response, I figure my soul can’t hear me. She must be back at the luxury hotel, lounging with a mai tai until I’m done with my adventure and the tour boat brings me home. But in reality, I’ve been so busy and focused underwater that it’s me who doesn’t hear her, the very captain of this ship! Our line of communication is always open, and she’s actually a lot closer than I think. 

Now that I’m paying more attention, soul reminds me that gravity is just a tool. But, after using it to pull me down and keep me in this crazy world for so long, it feels like the weights have become embedded in me instead of just being part of my costume. And that makes my human think I’ll have to die in order to let them go. 

“But what if,” soul whispers, “there are also anchors pulling you up?” 

I stop struggling for a moment to ponder this new idea. Could it be that rising and floating free are just as natural as sinking and staying down? It’s time for some imagination exploration. 

Remember that loving cloud hug I mentioned earlier? Now I imagine its embrace lifting me gently, never forcing but always offering a sense of buoyancy the minute I tune in to it. As a human, now it feels like I’m attached to something “up there” that lifts me up just as easily as gravity has ‘lifted’ me down. 

My mind has had a hard time understanding “reverse gravity,” or what Adamus calls aerotheon, but I’m finding it easy to imagine being lifted gently by my own sweet Self. While I’ve been immersed down here in the depths, she’s been anchored in the endless sky, giving me all the time in the world to explore, but never letting go.

It’s so easy now to feel. I simply breathe… close my eyes… imagine… and let go. 

With a deep breath in, I feel a rising swell, like a balloon tugging toward the sky.

With release and breathing out, I gently sink back to Earth, heavy again.

It’s not a fight one way or the other; it’s a discovery – “Oh, I remember this!”

I feel the density-cramps relaxing, the struggle-knots dissolving, the confusion fading. Trying to escape the gravity of duality, power games, suffering, and all the other human trials has been quite a struggle lately.

But I don’t have to fight my way out. I can just accept the invitation of the lightness – and the light. 

Will you join me?

Mai tai, anyone?