SHAUMBRA HEARTBEAT
✨AI Generated
By Jean Tinder
Debt. Obligation. Liability. Vengeance. Atonement. Penance. Redress. An eye for an eye.
Everywhere you look, something needs to be repaid. Most humans believe that anything they need must be earned, stolen, inherited or otherwise acquired from the outside. The pendulum is always swinging – too much this way, then too much that; toward the light, then toward the dark – and neither side can ever win. That’s how duality works, and we seem to be trapped in one of its most obvious forms: debt.
But what’s beyond duality? Can we escape debt? Can we even exist without it? What’s the difference between needy energy obligation and free energy exchange?
I never thought much about all this until recently when Adamus addressed the topic in his newest Master’s Pause – I Am Debt Free (here). It sounds great! I mean, who doesn’t want to be debt-free? But the topic is much broader than it first seems, and its personal impact has reached far deeper than I expected.
I was born into debt.
According to the family religion, the mere fact of my existence meant I already owed a debt of impossible magnitude. Modern Christianity’s fundamental worldview is that, thanks to Adam and Eve’s curiosity, we are so hopelessly indebted to God that he had to send his son to pay the bill. And now (ignoring all the holes in that theory), we are indebted to Jesus, owing him allegiance, adoration and worship for all time. In other words, we are buried in cosmic debt from the moment of birth.
Then there were the constant obligations of growing up in a poor family – lots of chores, not much food, younger siblings to care for, and just trying to make everything work. There was also the issue that came with being a preacher’s kid – the innate responsibility of “setting a good example” for others. One’s own desires were always at the bottom of the priority list, because being selfish and ungrateful was the essence of evil, even getting Lucifer kicked out of heaven!
The tangible debt never lifted during my younger years. Dad found it impossible to ask for fair payment, whether for his manual labor, his brilliant inventions, or his ministry as a traveling preacher. At some point I realized this was because of his non-existent sense of self-worth, coupled with an overwhelming obligation to “save the world.” Mom’s identity as a stay-at-home parent was non-negotiable and therefore exempt from paid employment, so there was just never enough. Debt collectors were a fact of life.
One peculiar part of being a preacher’s family was that while dad couldn’t ask for money, if his preaching and public service was worthy enough, people would be inspired to give us their tithes and offerings. In other words, if we were doing God’s work, then He would somehow provide, and He often did. There were many trips where we got home only because of the generosity (indebtedness?) that others felt toward the family. No matter how difficult things were, as long as we followed God’s lead, we were laying up treasure in heaven. In other words, God himself would owe us if we made it to the Promised Land.
But in the meantime, God was more like Santa, a tongue-in-cheek version of a deity who tracked us every minute, tallying each mistake, wasted moment, and lapse of judgment. The obligation and debt were pervasive, ongoing, and all-encompassing with no possibility of settlement until the afterlife.
Debt entangles you in all directions. I spent most of my life feeling indebted to others – financially, emotionally, spiritually and otherwise – but it always goes both ways. Like the SES truism – “If you’re being abused, you’re also an abuser” – I would say that if you owe others, someone also owes you. But, thanks to Adamus, I recently realized how both forms of debt – incoming and outgoing – are blockages to freedom.
✨AI Generated
After many years of slowly changing my relationship with money, I am now enjoying a nice level of abundance. However, some of my kids are still struggling, thanks to the old debt patterns I accidentally taught them. And see right there? Up pops the debt of regret, along with the hope to make it right, all of which led me to offer them a couple of substantial loans. And what’s wrong with that? Isn’t it what a loving parent does for their kids? But money can be a messy thing to combine with old family patterns, and things went a little sideways despite our best intentions.
While no longer worried about bill collectors, I was once again tangled up in the oppressiveness of debt – the subtle need to atone for past mistakes tinged with resentment at their lack of repayment and of course guilt about the resentment. What would a Master do in that situation? “Not get into it in the first place!” I hear Adamus chuckling. But here we are, so now what? Well, now comes I Am Debt Free, with Adamus bringing clarity to the issue and me making a surprising decision.
The bottom line is that debt inhibits freedom. While I’d been trying to help my kids find their freedom, I was really just painting our cage a different color. So, with a loving letter of explanation and a very deep breath, I forgave their debt in full.
Now, as I said to a friend, this decision makes zero financial sense because I’m still responsible for that money. But energetically? It purchased my freedom! I felt it in my body, my heart, my entire being. Layers, years, lifetimes of obligations that I could never quite balance out were tangibly lifting away, simply evaporating in the hours and days following my choice. It wasn’t just rearranging my liability; it was a true choice for freedom – for me only. Whether my kids give themselves freedom is no longer my concern.
This choice has real-world financial implications for me, but I also know it doesn’t matter. As Adamus noted several times, energy flows differently when it’s not encumbered by debt, and I am already experiencing this. While the messy entanglement of financial, emotional, and spiritual debt used to clog up every part of my life, freedom is now taking its place. My energy is unfettered to manifest everything I could possibly want or need. And it already is.
Whether you owe or are owed, the owing adds duality to your energy – attracting and repelling, knotting up and tangling in chaos and debt. But if you release it all, even if it doesn’t seem equitable or others aren’t doing “their fair share” or you’re hoping for some future reward, your energy finds a new balance. Instead of wobbling in the insatiable duality of give and take, now it swirls around you like a spinning top, aligning to your core and serving you in flow and freedom.
There are plenty of reasons to hold on to any kind of debt – being a ‘responsible’ person who keeps their agreements, being a proper parent/child/sibling/relative, setting a good example, even earning kudos in the Ascended Masters Club for your heroics. But are these reasons more important than your freedom? Is it possible to be so bold as to forgive yourself of every debt? If so, then anything given is a gift and anything received is a blessing, all now unencumbered by sticky old notions of duality and the impossible search for balance.
“Beholden to none, and free to soar.” This is the reality I choose. I learned a lot in that cage; but now that it’s dissolving, the wisdom is right here in my wings.
Si es así, entonces todo lo que se da es un regalo y todo lo que se recibe es una bendición , todo ello libre ahora de las viejas y pegajosas nociones de dualidad y de la imposible búsqueda del equilibrio.
“Sin deudas con nadie y libre para volar”. Esta es la realidad que elijo. Aprendí mucho en esa jaula, pero ahora que se está disolviendo, la sabiduría está aquí, en mis alas.
Beautiful and insighfull as always.
Shine on 🥂
I thought this was wonderful. Can feel the freedom. I love this
Thank you
Merci pour l’humour. J’ai beaucoup ri, cela m’a fait un bien fou et m’a détendue dans les changements “hot” que je traverse. Cela dit, j’ai très bien ressenti ce que tu décris, vu que je l’ai vécu aussi, d’une manière différente, mais la dette était bien présente sous toutes ses formes et bien entendu inattaquable, et donc insoluble. En ce moment, je me fais mes petits merhabs personnels dès que mon attention se clarifie sur quelque chose qui veut sortir. Aujourd’hui, c’était la dette. Merci.
Благодарю Джин! Как всегда,очень нужное осознание долга. Много времени я думаю о том,что должна выполнять услуги для стареющей матери,её капризы и пожелания. Вижу,что она старается как может в свои годы и со своими болячками.. Но иногда мой аспект раздражается,что должен выполнять то,чего не хочется… Всегда помню слова Адамуса:” Только Мастер может быть в служении”, и теперь я знаю,что это значит… – Я отдаю Дар без ожиданий и долгов..без старого представления того,что отдаю свою энергию другим…без раздражения… а,только из состояния Я Есть изобилие!
Brilliant, who would’ve thunk it……..;-))))
I love you Jean – as always; your insights in refined English languae (I had to look up a lot of words) are very clear, full of wisdom, humor and honesty. Thank you so much
What a Good Job, ,Jean!!!! Forgiving debt – Inserting Magic!!!! In the home I grew up in, that’s what our beloved SANTA did; thankfully our’s didn’t keep no stupid lists.
Great. I didn’t read this until after watching “Debt free”, but it is so in tune with what is going on in my life. Tanks a lot Jean.
Excellent writing and sincerity, which like you, we all carry, but now we are aware that we can finally be free from so many false beliefs that we have carried.
Thank you Jean …
your text made it clear to me that since Heavens Cross (or maybe even before, but from then on it was very clear) I somehow expect compensation for all my work as a RealmWorker… from Shaumbra, from the whole world… sometimes I even tried to demand it…
Although debt and guilt were not a big issue in this incarnation… on second glance… “I’m debt free” is for me also …
Big hugs
Veronika
As I often think, a prisoner is not free.
Neither is a jailer.
Thank you Jean for sharing your heartbeat on this subject. We all have our debt experiences that have burdened us – (growing up Catholic it started with original sin – my goodness!) – either resentment for not getting what was owed or shame for not paying what was owed. Last year I remembered an old forgotten debt (forgotten by both parties) and decided to contact the person and repay it. It was a gift to myself to energetically clear this and as an act of mastery and consciousness of abundance even though my human self felt it might be a challenge and hey I should let it slide. I’m so glad I made this act of consciousness. My abundance is pretty good but where it traditionally comes from is changing in the near future, and I’m focusing on clearing up some currently manageable debt, so this topic is “spot on the money” for me!
Thank you Jean…that hit all my buttons❤️ I recently paid off a loan and I’m financially debt free. Now I realize that it is so much more and there are things I truly need to release to move forward…2025. A gift or a blessing…a beautiful new perspective🦋
Благодарю, Джин!!! С Новым годом 🎄🎄🎄!