By Vili Aguirre

My life feels like a walking laboratory, a place to experience in awareness. Each experiment unfolds under unexpected variables that help me know my Self more deeply. This lifetime has been one of transitions and metaphorical deaths, with a commitment to be here during this grand shift in consciousness. Thanks to the many ups and downs, I’ve come to realize that while I create my life, not everything I encounter is entirely mine – it is no longer about me, as Tobias once said.

Where is the line between my creation and the situations we encounter in the world? The answer lies in understanding that what is truly mine is what I consciously choose. I interpret life through my energy, but I don’t create every specific scenario. This interplay often blurs the lines, creating doubts that aren’t even mine to solve. It can be confusing to deal with this crazy world if we are not aware of how our inner experiences shape our self-perception and help us stay embodied while the rest of the world seems to fall apart.

Like many other Shaumbra, I came here willing to clear old energies. For a long time, I carried the weight of others, holding it while waiting for something new to emerge. I thought had let go of most of it. Yet, I was unprepared for the profound changes that came, especially after Heaven’s Cross. With the lifting of the veil, change became inevitable, touching every stage of life – starting with mine.

I boldly decided to open myself to my energy, naively thinking everything was going to be easy (I should have known better…). Love, with all its beauty and shadows, came to my life in new forms. It wasn’t the love I knew before. It was firm and determined to help me release the old ways of loving that were hidden in the deepest recesses of my heart and mind.

My identity was turned inside out. What I thought I knew about myself dissolved, leaving me suspended in uncertainty. I revisited old patterns: love as control; respect as giving away my power; and unintegrated light as a vulnerability. These realizations, though painful, brought sweetness – like the dragon’s clarity paired with gentleness. Through each wave of transformation, I was forgiving my old love, clearing space for new expressions. 

This newly found peace is now a tool for me to deal with a world that seems to be spinning in nonsense. Old agreements and structures are dissolving, while power and money seem to cling stubbornly. Although it is disconcerting, I also realize my love has groomed me to cope with whatever comes next, being in the world but not of it.

My light had to shine on my own love stories first, allowing me to release them. Now, I can be fully aware of the world without needing to justify or make mental sense of it. This freedom is allowing me to integrate my light and dark without labeling things as good or bad.

Deep down, I always knew what was happening, but that didn’t stop the waves of change, the shifts in perception, the feeling of loss and heartbreak. As all of it cleared, I now look forward to this Love 2.0, a love that transcends duality. It’s not about chasing another carrot; it’s about owning all that I am and experiencing something my soul has never known before.

✨AI Generated

One night, I dreamed of being pure awareness, traveling through atoms and perceiving the empty spaces between them. A gel-like substance began spreading through the voids – or maybe I became aware of it. It wasn’t thick, but it connected everything, making it feel smooth and unified.

When I woke, I knew the substance was love. My awareness gave it existence. It wasn’t external but intrinsic, a part of everything. That realization made me feel safe, connected to myself, and to Life itself. As Adamus says, love is awareness and acceptance – a recognition of Spirit, Source, and the I Am within yourself and others. It’s not a concept or transaction but the awareness of being fully present.

This love, paired with consciousness, light, and wisdom, is the medium where new experiences are being brewed. It reorganizes reality in smoother, more aligned ways, infused with the essence of the I Am. Those who choose can step into experiences shaped by their awareness and consciousness.

As chaos swirls and structures loosen on Earth, nothing seems to make sense – at least to the mind. But this nonsense signals that things are moving, opening the way for the changes we’ve dreamed of. Despite the disorder, love connects and smooths, guiding reality into new forms.

In the midst of it all, there is a deeper sense – the sense of love, the organizing principle that helps everything become new.