A Love Letter
From Jean:
The day I read my first Tobias message was just like any other. My hands were full — kids to raise, a house to tend, a baby on the way — and my mind was still searching. Over the years, I’d encountered plenty of alternative and New Age material, but nothing filled the deep longing inside. Then one day, Tobias found me.
A printed message landed in my hands, and in a rare quiet moment, I began to read. That’s when the waterfall began. I’d encountered things that moved me before, but nothing had ever unlocked my heart like this. It was spring of 2002, and I knew my life had just changed.
A few months later, after our daughter was born and we’d moved to a new state, life finally slowed enough for me to devour the rest of the messages. With three years of material, including the Q&A sessions, it was a lot to take in. (Of course, my sense of “a lot” has evolved since then.) I fell into a rhythm: read a Shoud, cry a bit, conk out on the sofa for 20 minutes, then reach for the next one.
I was reconnecting with something ancient and true, and integrating it as fast as I possibly could.
Fast forward 20 years — and several lifetimes — to Adamus’ directive to Geoff: “Get your house in order.” One part of that massive housekeeping project was to revisit every item in the store: updating descriptions, extracting keywords, outlining content, and identifying key highlights. (Because let’s face it — “Newest amazing message from Tobias!” doesn’t quite hold up over the years.) At the time, AI wasn’t available, so every word was reviewed by hand — three years spent going through more than 250 messages, classes, workshops, and even music offerings. And when that monumental task was complete, we turned to the monthly channels — the heart and soul of Crimson Circle’s work.
As of today, the Library holds 420 Shouds and Q&A sessions, each one a unique transmission of clarity, wisdom, and remembrance. The Shoud Metadata Project, as we came to call it, was born.
It began with Vili, our resident AI pioneer and co-creator of the IP Index, where we track every piece of Crimson Circle content ever created. Deeply familiar with the material and passionate about its accessibility, she dove in and reviewed every monthly Shoud and Q&A session — extracting keywords, themes, and summaries. Once she compiled her draft metadata, it was my turn. Going through every series, every highlight, every word, I distilled, refined, and curated it all for publication on the website. And through it all, the love and dedication flowed.
For both of us, it was never just a task. It was a labor of devotion. We both found Crimson Circle through the heart-opening love of Tobias and the challenging benevolence of Adamus. Going back through every Shoud of the last 26 years became an incredible journey of the heart — full of insights, rediscoveries, quiet moments of grace… and a few tears along the way.
There were messages I remembered vividly, like old friends waiting in familiar places; moments I’d long forgotten that now struck with new understanding. (Some things just take a while to land.) And time and again, I was reminded of the depth, consistency, and love that flows through it all.
Now, you can experience it too.
When you visit the Library, go beyond the most recent Shoud. Click on any series icon to view all the Shouds from that time, along with a short summary of the year. Each individual listing then includes a two-paragraph overview, ten core highlights, links to the media, and any available bonus materials. In the Tobias era, you’ll also find the Q&A channel from each month under the “Q&A” tab.
It’s a beautiful, simple way to explore this living library of consciousness. You might be surprised what you discover — or remember.
From Vili:
Going through the Shoud library in reverse, from the most recent sessions back to the early ones, gave me a refreshed perspective of the Shaumbra journey as a whole. With each Shoud, memories flowed in; I could even remember where I was in my life when I first heard those words. But this time, I had the vantage point of the Now, the clarity that comes from having walked the path.
Working on the metadata allowed me to dive deeply and touch the very core of the messages — to sense how they evolved through time, or perhaps how they were offered from ever-expanding perspectives as we grew in consciousness. Before the metadata project, the library felt like a vast, radiant cloud where everything resided. Creating the metadata brought structure and clarity, connecting the dots, as Steve Jobs once said, “looking backward.” 1
This process gave me a deep sense of mission accomplished, recognizing the immense courage it took for us, as Shaumbra, to keep going through the countless moments of letting go, of opening wider to our own awareness and divinity. And my heart sang feeling the incredible love that runs through it all — the love shared among humans, and the love from the entities who have walked beside us to co-create this living library of wisdom.
What we have built together is more than a collection of transcripts. It is a legacy of experience — a chronicle from awakening to mastery made real through each breath, each choice, each embodied moment. It was a journey through time that helped me to understand, finally, how everything has always been here, and it is a matter of realizing it, one breath at a time.
Congrats Jean & Villi, I really enjoyed this piece. Thank you for your loving hard work. I AM glad I have had the privilege to meet you both in person and interact with you both. Love you!
Dear Jean and Villi, thank you can’t express my gratitude for all of the love, commitment, time an I can’t even think of all that you have given to Shaumbra and the world. But thank you, thank you and I love you.
Rosemarie K
I thank you for doing this incredible work, so we can just lean back and type a few keywords, then it enfolds. I am amazed at the coherence in all the channelings and the flow. Amazing. And it seems that the randomness is perfect, you get exactly what you need when you need it. Thankyou
Beautifully written. And yes, to me, Shouds are like breadcrumbs on my way home—never in order, never by chance. The one I feel drawn to, each time I return to it, always holds that glimmering breadcrumb meant just for me in this breath of remembering. And the way you’ve brought the Library to life again—so alive, so inviting—feels like opening a temple of remembrance, where every Shoud quietly waits for the one who is ready to remember. Thank you. 🤗
Jean, Vily , Love u , Thank you so much , gratitude from my hart ❤️
Thanks for sharing these experiences and thanks so much for the amazing work you have done.
Thank you thank you thank you – for you incredible dedication and work for all of us ❤️
Deep felt gratitude for all you are doing, your dedication, diving deeply into the materials and walking this paths with all of us. Thank you, Jean! Thank you Vili!
Amazing – wonderful work and you have added your light to every single word. You have both organized, made everything easier for us to find and filled the foundational work with such love and light. I’m so very glad that you let us know. So happy to know this.
You are amazing! Thank you very very much, Jean and Vili. Truly filled with so much love and gratitude for all you have done and shared. Well done, what an accomplishment! Thank you, thank you, thank you! And to the Crimson Circle team, thank you. Blessings to all.
My gratitude knows no bounds..
no words because i have too many…
Such devotion and humility in the role and service you both have provided through the years. Thank you for your gifts and anchoring the energies so that it’s more available to Shaumbra that reflect with fond memories and for the knowledge and wisdom now made available to even more who will be coming across this offering of consciousness to humanity.
Deep gratitude to both you ladies and the CC Team who make all this possible!
My God, what you all have done! Amazing
Thank you for all your work!
X Ellen
Thank you both with hand on heart for the energy and effort spent revising and reforming, absorbing with new eyes all of the material much gratitude 🙏
❤️❤️❤️
All my gratitude dear Jean and Vili ,
With Presence and Love,
Rich
Thank you both! A million times and more 💙💙💙💙
Thank you, Jean and Vili for your time and courage to do this! Great❣️
Thank you, Jean and Vili for your Time, Patience & Love. I am a senior. Returning to the humoungous catalogue of wisdom, empowerment & direction that has accrued over many years seemed quite daunting to me. You have made accessing info. simple! You both have provided an amazing service & legacy that will impact much of society. Thanks does not seem to be ample.
It is clear that Marvel’s Superhero’s ain’t what we needed! You both rock as our true “SUPERHERO’S.” Yeah!
There are not enough words to fully express my gratitude for all that each of you, Jean and Vili, have done, continue to do, and now have accomplished for the continued expansion of consciousness. Mahalo…
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A lot to go throigh, I’m sure. And what a beatiful perspective to gain.
Thank you for all that you gave us, Shaumbra, and the rest of the world.
A heartfelt enbrace 🤗
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Muchísimas gracias ❤️❤️❤️