Jean Tinder

Have you ever wanted something for a very long time? Perhaps nothing important or necessary, just a secret little dream that may or may not ever come true? Have you ever finally allowed it to come true – and then wondered, “What the hell am I doing?!”

I’ve got another house project going. The shower enclosure in my upstairs bathroom was deteriorated and broken, so I decided to replace it before my brother leaves for his next adventure. Just before we started, I mentioned to him that I felt a ‘catch’ with it, as if something was ‘off’ with the project, but no idea what it might be.

Years ago, Adamus went through a phase of asking Shaumbra what we want the most. At one point he said if he was in our place he would choose only one thing – clarity. That always stuck with me because why would clarity be more important than things like abundance or health?

True creation. It’s elusive, hard to define, and the whole point of existence. As humans we tend to see creation as something to be “done,” but at this point I think “doing” is a big distraction.

Adamus has been talking recently about true creation, which is quite different than what we normally think of as “creating.” We humans think of creation as adjusting a situation to our liking, bringing in new potentials, manifesting a painting or sculpture, etc.

Best Theme Park EverIf you listen closely, you can hear our non-physical friends whispering over and over again that we are loved and admired for what we’re doing. It’s because they know – and we forget – that being human is not for faint-hearted angels.

It’s funny how life reflects itself. You can look at two or more seemingly unrelated things and begin seeing all sorts of correlations between them. For instance, I am currently in the midst of an unfolding creation that has some clear parallels to the messy business of Realization. Both are the fulfillment of long-held dreams, whether decades or eons in the dreaming.

“Who am I?” It’s the most basic question of existence and we’ve been busy answering it for eons of time. Every answer is a definition, a limitation, a label we stick on or a box we stuff into.

Adamus has been talking recently about the human and Master co-existing, living together here in real life on Earth.

One day Master noticed human getting quite caught up in the world’s craziness, and decided to tell a story.

Wafting aimlessly through the ethers, Yamiel and Buziel blew intricate cloud-rings to pass the time. They had recently applied to the Immigration Panel, had just received their entrance codes, and now were waiting for their names to be called.

I questioned whether to write about this topic yet again, but it’s the one thing we all have in common and many of us still struggle with. Plus, I’ve been exploring some new potentials, so here goes…

I am here, sitting on the sofa in my office. It’s time to write, on this quiet, cloudy day. The mist is drifting through the trees, the summer temperature more than thirty degrees lower than just three days ago.

As I write this, I’m sitting in my garage, bundled up against the freezing air (springtime in the mountains is capricious), waiting for more neighbors to stop by and browse through my junk.

Not long ago I was facing a complex situation, trying to sort out all the what’s and why’s and if’s and when’s. Talking it over with a friend, going over all the issues and problems and things I didn’t want to repeat (and maybe getting a bit mental about it all), my friend stopped me and asked, “What do you want?”

Knowingness is the ability to know whatever you need to know in the moment it is needed. It’s is not intellectual knowledge; it’s just a knowing, a feeling, an intuition. Everyone has had moments of knowing, when our inner hunch proved to be right on the mark.

Let’s imagine for a moment… You’re living in some other time on Earth. Since the day you were born, your life has been lived in a cave deep underground.

January was quite a month on all fronts. As we began what Adamus calls the ‘Year of Separation,’ world events took on a strange sense of the surreal. I won’t get into politics here, but sometimes I find it hard to fathom the reality that humans are creating for themselves.

There’s something I’d like to share, something that’s made up of many facets. Perhaps they are ready to be woven into a story.

What a month it’s been. Full of more practice than I ever wanted of standing behind the short wall, choosing compassion, and letting go … letting go … letting go.

Like most of the world, I woke up the morning after the U.S. elections aghast at the news.

Some time ago, when riffling through one of the etheric libraries, I ran across an interesting story. It had lots of details and actually filled an entire book, but I’d like to share the highlights with you here, for it seems relevant and timely.

From the moment this lifetime began, it was about connecting and attaching ourselves to other people, things, beliefs and situations. It’s been a long journey of discovering ourselves through “other.”

We imagine the fall of ‘the powers that be,’ anticipating a glorious day when unseen forces no longer impose their insanity on the world. Will that finally mean freedom? We watch power-hungry politicians and cluck in distaste as they maneuver and spin their ever-changing positions.

July… what a month it was. In the Crimson Circle world, we had the final Shoud of the Walk On Series (already?!), the ProGnost Update (quantum evolution anyone?), Embodied Consciousness (simply beyond words), the launch of Keahak VI and the near completion of the Masters Club, to mention just a few little things.

Sometimes, finding the words to share what I want to say feels nearly impossible. How do you describe what’s beyond description? How do you define the indefinable?

So much change is going on… families moving house, children moving across country, partners getting (or quitting) jobs, dear ones suddenly leaving Earth, creative dreams with a new foothold in this realm, not to mention all the world chaos that makes it to the news.