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Allowing or Wallowing?
By Teofana Grecea
Allowing, wallowing… potato, potahto?
I love the spirit of Shaumbra. Aaaand… sometimes it seems like the stubbornness I sense we all share is bringing more grief than all the difficult facts of 3D life put together. I know for myself there was a certain dedication, of the whatever-it-takes type, that pulled me out of mass consciousness and into my own being again and again. There was a fire inside me that burned for freedom more than for anything else. And yet, as I started getting closer to that freedom, my mind didn’t always recognize it, even trying to destroy it by belittling it, ignoring it, and (always) zooming in on what was missing.
When there was little money in the bank account, but I had all the time in the world to myself, my focus went to lack. When my body was aching, even if I knew I was in the midst of a beautiful transformation, pain was all I looked at. When there was a conflict in a relationship, my thoughts would spin in circles around it until I made myself crazy, regardless of the fulfillment I got from other parts of life.
In my passion for being free, I would often confuse that freedom with a lack of discomfort, and then let my mind throw tantrums at any bump in the road that didn’t fit in with her images of a masterly life. I would let it get me depressed, obsessed, frightened, judgmental, sorry for myself, and mean whenever things were not going completely the way it wanted them.
My greatest luck was probably having a model, someone in my life who was already enlightened and completely human at the same time. Someone who still hurt, who was still doubting, who still had questions about how life works – and all the other things my mind wanted to obliterate in its rosy expectations of freedom – but also still perceived themselves as a Master. I saw that these things can and do stand together without diminishing the purity of one’s sovereignty or the joy of being alive, and still it took me years to fully accept it.
I don’t know how others are doing it without that constant reminder because it is so seductive – that escape towards freedom, running from past pain – rather than growing into freedom and engulfing all that life brings in it.
And yes, when we become aware that we are large enough to embrace and enjoy life exactly as it is, it gets immensely easier. But usually not in the ways the mind imagined.
For me it got easier to be alone with myself and to be around people; to lack money and to have and spend it; to have a full and an empty schedule; to be in my space when it’s a mess, accept that I don’t have it in me to clean and to do so joyfully when those resources come back online. It got easier to let go of people and to receive them in my life; to watch them go through difficult experiences and to cry my own sorrow when that hurts me.
Every time I let go of the expectations of how my life should be, there is such a tremendous sense of relief. Every time I disappoint myself, after I get out of my wounded ego and receive that humility into my wisdom, my wings are so much larger. I see that I just dropped another illusion about who I thought I wanted to be rather than who I Am.
Being stubborn is a resource for the journey of becoming aware of our Souls, but when we bring that stubbornness into the relationship with our Souls it gets toxic AF.
Maybe the Shaumbra curse is struggling to manage the switch from searching for and meeting our souls to actually enjoying them while experiencing these eventful lives of ours on Earth. So, we end up wallowing in anger, fear, and doubt rather than allowing. We confuse the two.
The more we dig in our heels to control life after becoming aware of the magical beauty inside ourselves, the more frustrating it becomes.
Let’s not poison the beauty of our light by trying to fight our way through it or manipulate it into “cookie-cutter mastery.” Our fiery will to get out of whatever each of us has been through has done its part already. We’re out, even if it doesn’t look how we thought it would, even if it’s far from perfect. We’re out, so no need to keep looking for things to fix or protect against. We have all the common sense we need to deal with whatever life brings from here on with dignity.
The more we resist melting into our wise knowing souls, the more we feel stuck. There is really no point to this struggle anymore, other than to realize we’ve outgrown it.
Sheesh! What a wonderful reminder thank you 🙏
it’s not about leaning into dissonance or resonance it’s about being where one is 🙇♂️
Thank you Teofana, you put it in a graceful and direct way, at the same time! As I also feel, it is about the switch between meeting ourselves, knowing ourselves and enjoying what we are, what is in our life, what is Our Life. Light simply shines, no questions asked, no requests made. For me the way the light shines is the way of allowing. It shines when we are a mess and when we are in order, no party favored, no stage favored. This is an article to read and share whenever I need a model, as you said, a remembrance of the actual existence in I Am.
As beautifully put as Teofana’s article. Both dovetail perfectly for me in this moment. Thank you both!❤️🥰❤️
Right to the point! Thank you, good reminder! 🤠
Thank you for your beautiful article.. it is so simple that we often miss the truth of it don’t we, waking up to already being a Master is sometimes the trickiest part 💜👍
Thank you!
Appreciated you sharing your experiences Teofana… didn’t so much appreciate it when you started with the “We”,,, “Let’s”… and “Ours”.
I liked it better when you just spoke for yourself.
Thank you.
Hello from Montreal Canada,
This resonates so adequatelly with my procesessings, stubburness….and in the same time without it we would of not advanced and discoverd.
Thank you for your expression, our gnose emerging from withing, raising ourselves to fly & be free
Sacred path we all walk on once fully chosen, at our own pace & beauty
What a ride
Wow. What a great analogy of my “perceived” continuing struggle as a master. I am so glad I was drawn to your article. This is an excellent kick in the butt. I really like your “Ands”. I agree with all of it. Thank you for voicing what I needed to hear. The struggle with the current human must indeed be the Master’s biggest hurdle.
Thanks for sharing with such clarity and wisdom. My lastest deep integration harmonizes with what you’ve said. Living more deeply in the
non-dual/AND, I’ve finally quit arguing with everything…especially my thought and feelings 😆
Thank you! Very clear. Resonates with me throughout.
Thank you so much, I can really relate to this article. Remembering to Just get out of my own human way !!!
Thank you for your wonderful article and the reminder. It comes to the right time.
You have a special gift for expressing that ineffable inner world of feelings & thoughts, as we migrate between states of euphoric realization and the pressure of gravity in physical existance. Thank-you for sharing your wisdom.
Eu adorei o seu artigo!!!!
Ressoa demais comigo!!!
GRATIDÃO!!!!